friendster can be quite addictive i think...i kept looking at people photos and is going to be an hour...how scary...i think...many things u know it just become memories and u cant turn it back and cant have it back liao...quite sad hor...yarloh...i really miss secondary school days very badly...but let's stop dreaming to be back into secondary school days...aww..the feeling is awful...=S

have you watched narnia?
must go and watch ok...it's very nice and very touching.
woah.did i tell you?
im most touched at the scene of the battle.
wana know why?
it reminded me about the fact that all christians are constantly in this spirtual warfare.
yar, battling gainst the evil Satan for the good cause of doing God's work and living up a life pleaseing to Him.
however many a times we fail..we give in ..(sometimes we didn't even know) letting Satan have a foothold...
how's the situation in your life? are you still fighting hard? still standing as firm as before?or you wanted to retreat? just want to be a christian that dun fight.(that's weird!)
i think most importantly we have to examine the willingness of our heart.
are you willing? to die in this battle? or are you ready? to fight in this battle.
many people died for the good cause. died cause they want to share God's good news.
how abt me? i was guilty cux i know i still didn give all i have and go all the way just to share the good news. many a times, i will lost the friendships with my friends. and cux my own spiritual battle in my daily life. it's so hard to react in all situation in a Christ-like manner and attitude.
"For Narnia, for Aslan"
let's continue to encourage one another to not to give up in running the race. amazingly this was the verse I came across during QT yesterday,
"therefore,since we are surroundeded by a great cloud of witnesses,let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely,and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,looking to Jesus the founder and perfecter of our faith..." Hebrews 12:1-2

let God's love to us be our motivation in running this race.=D

hello peeps~ !it's christmas!!!! christmas!!!! =D

i wana wish you a merry christmas,
i wana wish you a merry christmas!
i wana wish you a merry christmas
from the bottom of my heart ah!!! hee ~come sing with me!hee!

but hor u koe hor...christmas wihtout jesus has no meaning le...so let us also put aside a time for God to thank Him for loving us so much to send His son on earth to die for us.He don't need to u koe u koe?

if you have the time to spend crazy times with your friends must cherish, cux someone peep have to spend time in their lab! sigh sigh.

hee, well thankies for all our lovely cards and presents!!! hee...i love chocolate i love choclate!

hey EC i love your magnet...IT'S OK TO BE SLOW BUT JUST DUN STOP.
hee~ trying to suan me at the same time it encouraged me =P

what you want for christmas? =)
reminder: sch is one week away.................................................

tired. i think for the next many entries im just gona keep on repeating this.

sigh. i dun like the feeling of hmm....not being able to achieve the ideal case. it embeds the feeling of rejection.
sounds like a perfectionist ya? im quite a perfectionist actually...but over the years... it's not that much now....it's that good or bad?

brain: im tired.
mind: im tired too.
heart: im tired three.

how i wish someone can just carry moi..

hm, realise my posts are always speech. lets have some pix here! here it goes..

grace came back to SG for christmas!!! yeah i got grace for christmas!our first outing was to go and watch eu and jo performance at esplanade(BandFestival06)...some lame pix that we took:



we started off rather normal......however.....as we continue to walk on....

our funny faces start to appear.... the very first one...(trying to boo boo the esplanade?)

i think it was me having a problem..haha..cant even be normal with the subsequent photos..

we tried another funny act: indian dance ( isn't it cool to dance infront of fullerton?)

this was a huh pose... i think we are trying to act being flatten by a car...???


i tell u! it's not on me and grace are weird. eu is even worst loh u see:


so do u know what are they trying to find?i dunno u know..

at least we ended: normal. big smile! haha...cant help not to smile with them ard.=P

i shall post more next time.=P i bought my dress today ...yawnx.tiring walked the whole day . gdnite peeps =)

something to add on: kay wanted to give me her jean yip vochuer so that i can have the free trail of two slimming session. that's very thoughful of her hor? hee..but too bad im under 18. ahahahaa...come to think of it it's very funny. please loh...i seriously cant imagine myself doing those session...the machinese and the fats.weird.aha.=p

i felt so loved when i received a genuine present. yup. it definately lifted my spirit up!hee.=D
hm. i really wana buy something useful for those people that i love and care...but i have no finincial! haha...seriously...i can only make things..but hor...im so busy now that its hard for me to have time to make. i really really hope i can finish all my xmas card by thurs..so that i can send it on time! brrr.....haha..actually i got lots to share and say .. but too tired. gotta do lots of work.

its a headache to shift and buy new furnitures. ah!=P
thx God for keeping me safe and giving my strength to pull through the day.
Thank you peeps for keeping me in your prayers. =)

hello!=) you know what? i just chatted to someone whom i dun really know and also dun really know how she look..for one hour plus!! im really happy and amazed how God has enabled the conversation to be smooth....it is an unexpected conversation which i thank God for it. =) may God continue to enable me to know each youth that i come across genuinely and make me an instrument to share His good news and love with them. =D

if one were to ask me how am i recently? i seriously dunno how to answer. i can only conclude that im really tired in all ways. there's so many things i wana do. but i fail to do it. my memory fails . my strength fails. my will fails. i must declare that im limited, it is impossible for me to accomplish things by myself.

to my heavenly Father,
please continue to keep me faithful to the end and continue to be my source of joy and strength.
I know that im limited i need You to accomplish the things with me.
Your daughter

tomolo is a time for pot luck ! yippee! my last and first one pot luck was in sec 2.haha.meat balls.hee.tomolo gona wake up early to make crab mayo omellete! haaha...hope it works..haha..ah!left 5 hrs of slp....goodnite!=)

guess what did i do today?! come guess!
ans: I CLIMBED 13 FLIGHTS OF STAIRS.
conclusion: im mad for wanting to do some excercise.=P
results: spinning head.legs and hands turn into jelly.

by the way i lived on the 20th storey. so i took a lift down and up again. I really felt my whole head spinning, and my legs and hands have no strength at all...i shouldn't have risk, haha..moral of the story , dun ever risk ur live for beauty sake. wahahahaa.=P

The Unwanted Gift

It was laying on the table
Still and unpackaged.
The maker spent hours on it;
Doing it with all his/her heart and efforts,
Trying his/her very best to make it presentable.
He/she hopes that the receiver will be filled with sweetness and joy
Upon receiving this prepared gift.

But now despite the gift was done
And despite the maker was pleased with it,
It was not presented.
He/she tried,
But the response was hostile.
What do you suggest the maker to do?
Continue to try to give?
Or continue to leave it laying on the table, collecting dust?




Because of love, you will still give.

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i was very happy that day because we had a family outing! do u know that is really rare for my family to go on a outing?(in fact i don't remember any outing like this) it was my mum's birthday. =) my dad and sis took leave and we went outing at orchard. orchard - werid place for dad. but still i see him grin from ear to ear.
the picture: just me my sis my dad and mum ...went shopping. walk along at orchard road.we just go anywhere that mum wants to go.
sis: u want to buy ur shoes right?
we pulled her, and we stepped into our first destination : charles and keith.sis bought a pair of new shoes for her.
me: so where u want to go for ur sec stop?
mum: i want to eat ice-cream
sis: ok! let's go to gleto(ok i dunno how to spell)
we all had ice-cream..sat at the fountain at taka and apprecating one of my mum's favourite dessert.followed by shopping for clothes...haha...dad was bored ..but neverthless he is still happy. =)
well. i just wana note this down...so that i will remember this happy pix. well. only God knows very well that this picture is not easy to achieve for my family...espcially..we are a chinese traditon family. we are rather shy in expressing our love for each other. even expressing here now i feel weird. haha.

ohya! we end off with a dinner at soup restaurant! just wana recommend ...if u got any family outings there's really a nice place to have dinner...the soup are really nice...i drank frog saliva for dessert...hahaha..it was sweet~ =P

computer breaks down again! what im seeing now is a screen that is really white. it hurts my eyes. sigh.
i watched Harry Potter with Kay they all todae! well. haha...me and kay are the most timid ones.u shld had seen how we hold on to each other when the evil peeps in the show POPs out.wahaha..i think im gona miss kay real badly next year. she really brought alot of joy to me.=)

the weather is so nice today! the feeling is so shiok when u step out after bathing and the breeze just wooshh pass u...woah.it's really nice to sleep in this weather!
i feel "poetic" todae. so i should "try" to make my thoughts sounds like a "poem".haha.

can u feel the icy breeze today?
this is the breeze that i loved and enjoyed the most.
feeling its gentleness as it passes me.
it has a special scent, which brought back a not too long ago memories.
as the memories flashes, it had made me felt a sense of sweetness.
but it has also made me remembered the bitterness.
though the bitterness no longer grab a hold of me
but i still whined a little of wanting back the good old memories.

ohoh. i dunno how to put my thoughts in words liao.hmm......ohno. i really dunno how to say! i will think again. haha.=P i wana sleep! dun wana miss the good chance of slping.haha!

p.s ok it's obvious. my english still cannot make it. what a choppy poem.hahahahaha.

how one's life should be like?

why am i asking myself such qn. this is such a dangerous signal. *thinking hard* am i busy with the right stuffs? am i busy at a right way? is this the way i should serve? am i neglacting anyone that is close to my heart right now? am i? am i...???

*yawnx* still wondering...
but i know im really tired today. near 4 hrs of meeting. 3hrs of typing minutes in CHINESE.(only completed 3 out of 12) how horrible. i really dunno what i wana achieve this coming week. seems that things are becoming more like an obligation. THAT'S VERY BAD. i know. gona sort it out through prayers....

im was angry today.
no. 1) travel all the way down to school end up..practice cancelled. no notice was given. SL THOUGHT that teachers will be there so we will still be able to get the key to practise, but in the end NO TEACHERS -> NO KEY -> CANNOT PRACTISE.
WASTE MY TIME!

so i travel to CCK.. going to meet someone at 3 pm there...
walked ard lot 1 to try to get some stuff for my friend's birthday.. but cant find what i want...walked finish..go grab a bite..try not to eat so expensive one...i realise the cheapest meal was KFC $2.55 from shroom meal...but! it so unhealthy! ..can u believe it ..foodcourt food are at lesat 3 dollars more expensive than KFC! i got myself a plate of mee siam...which the serving is quite small...ahhhhh..feel so cheated.

no.2) "Poooot" i didn't fart. guess wat....MY HANDPHONE DROP INTO THE MEE SIAM!!!
i was panicked, without any hesitation i picked up hp ...poor motorola E398...stained with meesiam....i tried to "save" it ..but i dun have tissue! how! i walked towards the cleaner...asked her politely to lend me her cloth to clean...guess what! SHE SNAPPED AT ME!and say: YOUR OWN THINGS OWNSELF GO AND FIND WAYS TO WIPE. I WILL NOT HELP U.
i was so mad. cna u imagine the gravy just keep on dripping dirtied my skirt and shirt and she still dun wan to help. with my sticky hands , one holding my hp one holding my wallet i hurriedly walk to the drink stall to buy a packet of tissue. sigh. now i got a "messiam hp" i still can smell the meesiam from it...eee..

no.3) i sat at Macs..it was ard 130pm ...waited..for the person to come...330pm..she didn't turn up...awww.....im glad Michelle is ard..or else i will be even more cham...

ok at least i brought somethings with me...so i can do..i sat til 530..yar.the chair must be realli hot...haha

well. but the day ended with a positive note!i met dx! finally...we have been asking each other out to tok since promo ended?finally...haha...
well it's very true that true friends doesn't have to see each other everyday to maintain a friendship....the conversation is really quality!..haha..im always very thankful and amazed when i can still remain close with a friend despite we hardly see and tok to each other so much..=D

im really happy to see her growing , learnt stuff from her...her experience when she share with her friends...
yar indeed. evangelism is not by ourselves. but we are teamed up with God. =P
p.s. go and care. go to where they are.

hello. i ate lots of things yesterday. that i skip my dinner.haha.
list of things i ate for lunch:
curry chicken ( super duper oily that i dare not drink the curry)
rice ( cooked with chicken oil)
durian ice kachang ( imagine it has such high sugar contain)
roti boy ( can't resist the temptation cux it is selling at 90cents..hot buy!)

haha...i feel really fat after eating so many oily and sweet stuff...drank milk for dinner...haha...

i had my first visit to the central national library yesterday!
and i go with her! a new friend that i get to know yesterday! haha ...ming hui! continue to thrist to know God's Words k? im so encouraged by u ! =P

and ahem thx ah i "love" the national library lift. it makes my heart jump out....hahahaha...my legs trembled when i got out of the lift...how embarrassing lah....hahaha

well. im going through a tough time now. it seems that my trail is "growing" bigger and bigger. may i continue to cling on to Him. =P

[me] have you ever wonder why you fail so many times in terms of studies?
[me again] yar...
[me] so what are your thoughts]
[me again] well ... though feeelings sux big time, though I feel so weary, dun understand why i have to suffer and face such terrible horrible thing...im assured that God works for the good purposes for those who love Him
[me] so seems that you see some "light"
[me again] yar..i think one thing that God wants me to learn is not to put me in comfort zone
[me] poor you , since sec 1 u have been changing classes every year .except sec 3&4... changing ur group of friends ..and u say that good?
[me again] yar ... precisely..this shows that God knows me utterly well..He knows that if i always stay in the same class i will get too comfortable and it will be even harder to get out ... i think that's why i always face a lot of changes in terms of environment...i must admit that im really a person who takes a long period of time to adapt and adjust ... though i may appear...emotionally and mentally im not really..i once thought adapting to a new environment is not a problem to me..but i was wrong...He knows me much better than i know myself...
[me] are u just trying to comfort yourself
[me again] obviously not...duh.

i wana be a little lamb of God, always taking a little step of faith to move forward , always learning to trust and obey Him. For He is my good shepherd. =)

my computer is back! no longer the laptop! yeah! woah. i realise my keyboard is so nice to type one. got the bouncy bouncy feeling and the chattering keys sound. sounds crispy to me.hahahahahahahahahaha.and woah ! my screen now is really big! soothe my eyes...haha..=P

though my computer is back but it is reformatted that means!! lots of images are gone. lots of songs are gone. lots of words documents are gone. well well. i think..........that can do some good to me. =)

hey don't worry for me k. i think retain is not a very very very bad thing. is just that i have yet to reach the standard required and therefore i have to be one year slower than others. so im really ok though when people asked me about it ..i still feel er...duno where to hide..haha. it's really a good time to learn the lesson of "humility" =) -learning in process- i graduate liao then tell u ...haha..but i think by that time i will be in heaven...wahahaha..

i still wana say : THANK YOU FOR REMEMBERING ME IN YOUR PRAYERS!

i do still need it... i think especially when school starts. =) now is not yet the worst time and feeling. hm...in the meanwhile im trying to pick up studying intensively again. =) everyone must jiayou!!!

MY THANKSGIVING

thank you Lord for showering me with Your abundant love,joy and peace.
He hears my cries attentively and show me His promises through His Words.
He is always so faithful. =)

i thank Him for the people that He placed in my life.
without them seriously i don't think i can stand up that fast.
hey peeps, thank you so much for your encouragment, support, concern, reminding me to keep my eyes fixed on God, for His plans are always the best for me and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts.

thank you u all for encouragingments( through my blog, sms or words or prayers etc!) are all APPRECIATED! =D

without you all, i dunno i will dwell in my sorrows for dunno how long...hahaha...
especially peeps that i know barely for 7 months in acjc ! im so amazed and surprised by u all the love and warmth....heheheee.... =D
of course my co-workers in yfc and my sis and bro in church too !

it's well with my soul. =) im ready to stand up and fight the battle again.

THANK YOU !!!!!!! love you guys ... =P

you know, im in such a conflicting state of mind. dunno which is the correct attitude that i should take in response to the devasting results. lots of questions on my head. questions that i dunno how to find answer.
well. i only can hold on to one thing that is: God loves me. simple statement yet it is hard to tell ppl exactly how did He shower His love on me in my daily life.

friends asked: how come u can still be so optimistic? after receiving such bad results at the next moment can still smile and say that im craving for brownie..." i wana eat brownie..but very ex leh shld i?..brownie can make me happy loh.."
well. only He can give me this peace and can make me still smile at the storm. =)

well. i only have one wish. that is whatever actions or attitude i take in response to this storm. let it be blameless in His sight.

well. obviously. still sad. but He gave me strength to face tomorrow.Cause He holds my tomorrow.=)

im short fused today.people are getting more short fused too.i wonder how many blown out bulbs will i see tomorrow. i saw my physics teacher today! i dare not look at him. =S *tick.tick.tick. friday is approaching. where's my peace? =S

today with have sexuality education which they emphaise that it is not sex education which i dun understand what's the differnece ?!! haha .. anyway .. my heart sank when i saw people dun find anything wrong in pre-marital marriage. do u koe my teacher agrees that there's no wrong in pre-marital marriage as long as two love each other. what's the world coming to? it's getting to scary.... the values are just so blur in the youth minds now...it seems that absolute rights and wrongs does not exist tothem..there are always a lea way...

well..shall tok more abt it another time...

anway today is wan ting's birthday. well . though is a short party . but i enjoyed. i felt encouraged when i see younger ones growing spiritaully in the Lord. =) and im happy to see cell groups growing. im happy to pray in a group. conclusion : im over-all happy not short fused. =P

i think im getting crazy each day....haha...im feeling that im gona have a fever soon...ohno..what's wrong with me....well...just let me whine now........................................................................and slp:)

i love the night breeze ... so so nice...smells nice too? =)
as i reflect back the times when im preparing for promo ... i couldn't believe that i made it through....the struggles to stay focus in studying..the struggles to cope with my fears..the struggles to be discipline..the stresses..peer pressure... etc....the non-stop battle spiritually and physically...are really frightening to me...
how many times did i actually break down and cry...feeling myself very useless...simple things also cannot conqueor etc...
but really i can only say one thing that is God made it possible for me. He really carried me through these diffcult moments ... comforting me through His words and songs...assures me...providing me strength and rest...
how can i be doubtful to this God who is so real in my life, how can i doubt at His love for me.
truly it's His grace and mercy , that He is willing to love me who is so unworthy of His love.
He is the Kings of kings and Lord of lords yet he still willing to die on the cross for me so that my sins may be cleansed.
His love is so big big big big BIG !!!

now is the awaiting of my results..which will all be out on friday...the thought of me makes my heart panic...but may i also learnt to put my trust and confidence in Him alone and stay focus to do His works.=)

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial,because when he has stood the test,he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12

may our faith be toughen and not lessen after each round of battle! =P

YES! i finally changed my blogskin ! isn't this so sweet and nice?!! haha! yeah! im really happy to change my blogskin!!! haha...but urgh...the tagboard is not working...urgh urgh...heee...work on it another time...=P ttfn!

ooo...btw...baby blue is flora chan favourite cartoon character! =P

haha...why am i always jotting things down after talking to the wooer?haha..actually it's nice talking to her..can talk very long...hahaha...=D
i think my social circle is quite big...but i think it can be quite scary and tiring?maybe i can say: with more friends come greater responsibilities....sounds familiar?hee...
maybe u can feel belong? when u say hi to more people but then at the same time u will feel superficial? then ok u want to know the person more but that to know a person more needs time and effort...so end up tiring i guess...there's many ppl i wish i could spend more time with but duno how and hard to find time.... haha..maybe that's excuses...it is not impossible, it is posssible one...
i want lesser friends and closer friends..but however if i never had a taste of having more friends i wun know having lesser friends is better and good! contradiction. how to remember to care for ur friends when there's many in ur head...
but im sure God place so many friends in my life for a purpose.=)
sometimes i also think...studying kills me by forgetting to care abt my friends and most impt my family.

there's so many more impt things to do in life. it is definately not boring or meaningless. just look ahead,look at ur holidays, there's so much time that mean u can use it to do many things u that are meaningful besides just having fun...maybe u can go learn a skill..and go benefit others?or go cease the time to clarify or find out any doubts u had in ur life...just go! and dun let this holiday be a meaningless one...=)

yeah.im going shopping with eunice! haha...i think i never go a one to one date formal shopping with her before..despite knowing her for 4years.=D

gdmorning!im sick of studying chinese for 2 hours straight..haha..i have better endurance in studying physics than chinese ! oh my goodness! haha..this give me 2nd though of whether i really wana further my studies in majoring chinese...i dun like to write chinese words , i dun like to read chinese novels so what actually give me the tot of becoming a chinese teacher? haha..like they always tease me "the making of chinese teacher" haha...maybe i shld go major in physics! haha...and see how i die...hahaha...ahh...suddenly im quite lost dunno what to be next time...but haha..i stil got at least one more year for me to think about...

i considered myself as rebellious yesteryda..haha...i was like...i wana be alone.dun come and bug me.i wana surf as much as i want ...sleep as much as i want..dun u dare to interfere.hoping that by deluding myself in doing what i want i can get rid of my pain of cant do my phy paper..which frankly speaking the paper was easier than terms...but well..it didn't make me feel better ..instead i feel worst... the guiltiness of spending my time like that...
haha..i suddenly tot of the famous quote in twelfth night .. "if music be the food of love,play on give me excess of it....." orsino was love sick..im like him but im not love sick...im exam-sick...haha...
u wana shut urself out from everything? the feeling is worst. dun ever try it..bad for health..=P

well..shall go back studying chinese...hopefully can complete the read through today ..is so many pages !! then tomolo can just keep on memorise and memorising...which i dun encourage...chinese shld be alive! wahaha....

it's really hard to give thanks when u r feeling lousey.
i really feel LOUSEY today...depress...i cant do my maths exam ! im really really sad..
that despite the extra practices i got more than others..i still cant do!
is even more depressing when ur friends are comparing ans..and u? can't even get the final ans..
sobx sobx...

see the prob up there? yea...comparison... but...hiax. i really cant think of something to make myself feel better. and true enough i cant help feeling myself being the most stupid student in ACJC.

solution? slp .yeap feel much better.. and u will totally feel great again when u surrender all things to Him and give Him ur praise and thanksgiving.
haha.so i play my oragan like mad ... and yeah ! haha..thank God that He still loves me ...heheee.=) so im just put my trust in Him and just concentrate on my physics...haha

i truly thank God that He makes my flu go away. i prepared 3 packets of tissue today,after experiencing using 2 packet of tissue during chi paper yesterday... and i didn need to use any ! hahaha !amazing ya? haha ... God is good and faithful. =)

The battle has not started yet my physical health has already failed me, can I still keep my faith?

yox. yup. has been really busy preparing exam.everyday is like a rollar coaster to me . suddenly happy . suddenly stress. suddenly sad.haha .. after e conversation i decided to jot down some reflection during this period of time. =)

yup. no doubt this period is really really stressing .
i tot to myself. how come im feeling so stressed?
the most truthful ans: im scared of retaining. i have high possiblity of retaining after obtaining 3Fs in terms. haha. i scared how ppl think of me. i dun wana let ppl thinks im stupid or incapable.
therefore i begin to pressure myself..then of course got breakdown loh.
but i realli thank God for showering His grace and mercry to me.
He reminded me that hey where am i placing my confidence? in my results in my studies?
since i really doing my very best, always trying to maximise my time in studying the results i should raelli leave it in His hands who promised me that His plans are to prosper me.
perhaps i really retain , but i did my best. though to the world this may seems not a prosperity but hey His thought are far much greater than my thoughts. His plan definately works for a good purpose! =P

im so happy that I have this hope in me, which i really wana tell lots of ppl..when i see people stress and all that i really dunno how to encourage them , cux there's nothing to hope for..i can onli say just do ur best ... but for those who has the Hope in Him , when we do our best we can be assured that our results are safe in His hands.

one more thing to add, i always condem myself when i cant do the qn .. dermorilsing myself... i realise that im uniquely created by the very very wise and smart Creator ! so..i definately have the potentail to conqueor the qn !!! haha ... but CANNOT BE PROUD !remember..all these things does not come from me but from our Creator =D

well well..let's really learn to put our faith and trust in Him.I have tasted His goodness and faithfulness in this difficult times ... go !taste His goodness urself! =P

sitting infront of the comp.really unwilling to face what i had to study.ahhhhh.jiuming ah.
my chest has been pain since 7..and i really wonder why.now is 8.what if i studdenly get a heart attack .. ahh! that will be good! that means i will no need to face promo !
it's only tues ! and im on my verge of giving up?! how can !!! i wonder what i will be like at the end of this week...*sobx*
waha...bahhh bahh...i want a good health ! no headache. dun wana feeel feverish when i get panick... ahh..
haha..i think i continue to write like this my sept enties will be really sad ...so depressing to see the word STRESSED ..so let's read it this way ! DESSERTS !!! YUMMY :D:D:D
yar ! physics is a piece of cake ! coated with purple berries with creams ... maths is just a slice of mango mousse ! chinese ?! my ice-kachang ! hahaha... if i really eat all these i will really get terrible tummy ache ..the weathr is so cold ! haha..nice to sleep eh? but cannot !
ok let's get cracking ! dun be lazy people !!!

come do with me : BREATHE IN --- HOLD it !1 ...2....3....!! :D
BREATHE OUT !
again!do this three times ! feel cool? ok !

in these times of difficulties i will be obedient and leant to trust God for He will provide me with His strength ! ;P
"so do not fear,for I am with you;do not be dismayed,for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

yox.let's blog blog blog. to relieve stress ! haha...
im doing my tutorial on curve sketching..and im so impatient with drawing curves !! u must consider the curve tends to where and where .. ahyoi caculate until i blur!*-.-*

and i have been eating mooncakes ! i just cant imagine the amts of fats ! hahaha ...im gona lose my title of ms fit ! hahaa ! these year i got to eat a variety of mooncakes...haha..

1) my sis's future mother-in-law's 1st attempt of making mooncakes herself. and she can be really creative...bin pi + green tea + choc chip..and how it taste like ? ahem. shan't comment...but well..seems that im fuflling my sis responsiblity ..ate 6 out of 12 !!and she ? none !
2)haagen daz ice-cream mooncake..of course yummy..but is a bit too sweet...guess how much one haagen daz mooncake cost ? $20 !!! still got
3)various hotel mooncakes ...
4)yam mooncake..one of my favourties..and
5)my father's fav. hainan mooncake..and wu ren mooncake..which wat he like is what i dislike the most.. eeewww...
see! the amt of mooncakes i got to eat...= fats !! haha...ok dun get me wrong. im not on a diet.just that i have to eat healthily to prevent any more growth horizontally.haha =P

ok. let's move on to the next topic. which is what my father teased me about yesterday ->hooking a Jin Gui Xu ( a golden tortise husband!)
if he is serious about it im gona bang my head against the wall now!haha!
haha. let me delcare.why i never wana tok about the possiblities of a bgr relationship now.
1)im not mature enough to hold the responsibilites as a helper for my partner
2) no time to be committed. doing phy can take me 24 hrs. where got time for bf ?!!!
3)my age is very far away from the suitable marriage age !!
4) there are far too many more impt things that getting a bf !!!
5)...can't think liao ...but im sure these reasons are sufficient=P bleah.

what's the point of just getting a relationship after the another? sometimes is really sad to see my friends getting hurt over and over again. sad.
let me grow more mature first lah..use the time to really develop myself. =D
whuever see this dun ask me this qn ANYMORE! =P wahahahaha
let me at least be a nerd for now. go study ! =D=D=D

well. one more lesson that i learnt as this week come to an end that is : slow to anger!!
"for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires". James 1:20

this verse never speaks so strongly to me before.this shows that God is really all-knowing. He knows that i have been VERY short-tempered this week. well the week is coming to an end. since i confessed my sin. let is be the past and let's look forward to a good coming week !=P
let's move it ! i wana finish my maths ! =D
whuever feels that i spoke very harsh to .im sorry!

yox.yeah i know i just said i wun blog for a period of time. but i wana say it out! or else it will remain "undigested" in my mind. haha. i think so.
"huh.u come school for wat?"
"very stupid loh. come school for wat?"

let me explaine the background of this : i only got 1 period of PE lesson today out of 5 periods of lesson.because.JC1 lesson will ends at 11.10am today. and after that is 5-6hrs of long NE trip to OCS(officer cadate school).12 people turn up out of 26.some are going to take pink slip and zhao after their important lesson.

well. heard lots of such comments. no im not hurt or anything. just that i tot to myself. i really look that stupid meh? obviously not ! i know. well. is not a matter of stupid or not.it is a test of my faith.=)We always sing we want to live our life for Him and blab... but when decision comes , it is really tough. of course i really wish not to come school. but think again.what's my dentity?ans: daughter of the King of kings.my life belongs to who?who i wana live for?ans: The Almighty Father. therefore i have to be accountable of the time given to me. and coming to school is my responsibility as a student.

well. a test of my faith. no doubt. this decision i made.will defintely sharpens me.
so im happy person again !! =D=D=D
ok.my thought are digested.no constipation.wahahaha! =D

my blog is going to be lonely for a period of time ... wana load up pix but it will take me time .cant afford.
the past week has been terrible. I had been a bad time-keeper. Therefore this week...it cannot be !!! so ... i must be really conscious of how i spent my time !

Do pray for me that through this time of preparation of exam i will learnt to draw my strength from Him, stay focus but of course not to forget to continue to read His Word and do His work. =P

*to peeps who are having prelim : jiayou too ! =P

woah ! i have visitors who are coming to my blog! haha... =D im happy!hehee..hello ! all are welcome! haha ... my blog is not anyhow anyhow can see one loh ...cux i dun anyhow anyhow tell people one loh...haha! =D

well.. after a one week of junk food for my braekfast lunch and dinner!!! which are mostly high in sugar, salt, fats..they are oily fried and full of msg ... FINALLY ! i got to eat home food for today...finally!!! haha ... i have fish veggi and toufu .. with saba chilli .. home-made chilli..yummy! haha...the fish has no perservatives...simply washed with salt and steam...veggi .. is with little oil no salt ....toufu is fried at the outer skin onli ..the inner is still as white as before...yummy! i finally got a healthy meal ...haha ...! =D

well.it's nice to get to talk to zel and alo today over lunch and get to know them a bit more .. =P i hardly dine in with them ... =D well ...ohyar ! toking about the collection of our harp gown ...my mother was laughing like mad at me loh!!! haha..she say i simply dun have any figure in it..and im look really short in it ..!! ahh ! jiu ming ah! =P

yeah. pa is coming back home today..however some miscommunication ...two cars are went changi and wait for him ... that means one party is dissapointed and angry. and who kana? me loh.... ahyoi ..suppose to be happy that pa will be home today..what did he bring back leh? =P

>i only do 3 question of phy for the past few hours!!!
>> i don't wan to waste my holidays!!!
>>>ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!>.<

today 's air is really bad ... very bad .. serious air pollution .. i cant even stand to brethe in the air for a sec today .. everywhere is "burning" .. =(

i was tagged as ms fit today ... i have no idea where this idea come to her... which i wana delcare to her..im not fit!...hahahahahaha ... i just insulted my very ownself...haha....im just conscious of health without carrying it out...which is so bad lah....body combat on friday was no use at all i didn't even sweat...!!

let's slp ! then i will be pretty! hahaha...for tomolo performance by the youth! wohoooooo ..buai!

as i look at my blog. my english is still very bad! poor grammer poor vocab.poor sentence structure.everything is poor! ah! got to start reading my TIMES that are lying everywhere.hee!

today im so touched by a testimonial given by a mother not only about herself but a testimonial of her daughter and son too.

And also the daughter and her co-labourer shared about their mission trip in June to yun nan , once again reminded me the great commission.not that i dunno about the great commision ..but through it i see the weakness in me .there's 2 type of stuff . one for an eternal cause and one that is not. many times i placed importance and hold on to things that is so small compared to things that is for an eternal cause. for example , spending of my time. is it most of my time is not used wisely? when actually the time i can use it to do something that is more meaningful?

why sould i hold on to it since i koe i should give up and accpet the 'no' answer and placed my time on the more imporatnt stuffs that will last for an eternal cause?

and the bible did show the imporatnace of a family. the testimony showed the bond between the family memembers. they love each other with the love of our Father and i really think is a very admirable thing to actually grow together spiritually. isnt it nice to spend time and pray together with our family members?

i think the essence of a relationship ,no matter is family friends or a life-time parthner , is not just have fun together , but to help one another in the spiritual walk with Him " spur one another " encourage and speaks to one another in love .. growing up together spiritaully is a very beautiful thing... =)

did u watch superstar?! i think it is really nice . well. happy that weilian won . however i feel a pinch of sadness in me ... im wondering is it a good thing for him to step into showbix? well..is not for me to worry... hmm

anyway tried to change my blogskin ..i realise it took so much time decided to give up instead...haha..

tomolo is body combat! well time to burn my fats off! eating lots of junk recently..THAT'S BAD!!

happy teacher's day ! and happy birthday to my dear frend ah wen ! =D

*yawnx*
i always think if i just make sure that i eat vegetabes and fruits everyday , my health should be quite alright . ok plus excercise . i do excercise ok. =P twice a week?
but im wrong! true enough as what my father always nags about ... no materr how well is ur diet the most important factor to your health is your sleeping hours!
yeah...got headaches...doze off during class...urhg. seems that by just "ta-hanning" is cannot ..is harms my health... so ..to be wise...i better force myself to complete everything before 12-1230am.
let's move it! i wana finish my EoM! horrible! doing it for the third time!

-lonely without daddy-
no one to make me milo every morning
no one to help me spread my bread with nutella and snow cream
no one there to ensure my saftey by watching me walk to the mrt ...and lots more..

it's funny to see mummy trying to play the role of my dad ... they are just two completely different people. haha. what happens if one day.........

yox! i wanna make some noise here ..my blog has been rather lonely .. that's cause im lazy ... i does have my weird thoughts lingering around .. but haha ..yup.lazy =P

im searching for new blogskins...saw some nice one .. shall change soon .. =P

well what's my thought for today??
hm. just wanna say woman wanna be feel very blessed.haha.
suddenly i realise there are so many people are willing to help me!
maybe is not suddenly.hm.and i realise there are many people who can help me in my physics.
what can i say? Jehovah Jireh, always providing my needs. =)

therefore HEY EVERYONE! just wanna say a simple THANK YOU !! i think everyone who i come to know has helped me one way of another!=D=D=D

woosh! wah!>.<
i observed somthing recently too ..
the person u care and love deeply can make u turn to a monster...i mean a crazy monster ..haha
i observed how my dear sis turned crazy because of diff people ... woah.now i know it is powerful

tell u a secret .. i dozed off for a few sec during chapel ! my goodness..that makes my guilty =S
well..seek for forgiveness!ok time to sleep!

> trying to squeeze every single drop of brain juice everyday .. so that it can work more and more efficently as the days go by...=P

>>u cant place ur emotion needs or ur security in man , cause man will definately fail u.yet it is so hard to not to tend to do it.well.it is not something that u can conquer by yourself.rather with God's help.acknowledge it.then continue to surrender ur life unto Him.=)

song that we sang today that i cannot not agree:

Chorus:
how could i live without you
how could i survive without your love
without your touch
you are the one that heals me and cleanes my heart
and set me free.

truly without Him , i dunno how can i survive through my darkest moments? without the love of Him that He has shown by sending His only son to die for me,how can my sin be cleansed nor can i be set free? His truth has set me free.=)

haha .. let me note down my currect greatest achievement that is ..... i finally opened my mouth and book a date down to meet my phy teacher ! (opps! i suppose to ban the word!) hehee.... finally..u shld had seen me beaming with joy and hop a little while walking out sch...haha..i hope no one noticed...haha...it takes super big courage for me to take that step..waha !

u koe wat? i think cool breeze is so nice...especially the breeze after a rain ... when u take a deep breathe is smell sweet and refreshing .. i like that kind of weather best ! =D just sit somehwere in a corner...drink a cup of ...hmm...coffee? stare at the sky .. look at the moving clouds ... read a little .. i think i will feel very contended le. =)

soon ? such days will come? hehee...

my___ practical is still undone.

hello.. have not been posting any entries lately ... i do have weird tots in mind wanted to post up ... but haaha...but im just too tired and lazy ..i think sleep definately has a much higher piority than blog..haha

i don't feel good today..didn't have a good sleep yesterday..my mind was pratically awake just that my eyelids are close ... throat is still very itchy which im scared that it will turn into running nose and finally leads to fever ... i seriously dun want to fall sick .. that's why im feeding myself with lots of fruits...=P and i was quite annoyed during chapel .. by people's comments .. i feel like just scolding them lah..but ... haha... i have no right too ...hehee...

i wonder why people like to say vulgarities? is it really something cool? something in?fasionable? i really can stand people saying the 4 letter words like no one business ... i feel like yelling at them!

haha..my entry sounds mad today ...haha...ok..i better calm down and step aback ...breathe in breathe out...1..2..3.!smile! haha..=D

u only gona live everyday once u koe ... haha..i find it really hard to live everyday for God's glory...just the controlling of emotions alone ...kills me...haha..

today i received a BIG D ..not initial D movie tix or vcd...haha...is a comment that marks : POOR SKILL D ...wahahaha...tomolo is phy prac !!! i seriously dunno how to comment and annalyse on errors loh...haha..

let me share with u a nice song sent by the woo, (waha u better tell me what's ur blog add!)
Who am I
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my nameWould care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning StarWould choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

yar..who am i men..that the Lord of all the heavens and earth will want to shower His love and grace each day for me? what rights do i have to argue and be stubborn ... be submissive!=D I belongs to Him , He will be my shield, help me counter all the attacks..i shall fear nothing!wahaa...do u have such a powerful weapon in ur life? ;)

it is great to be on par with time =D
it is bad to be behind of time =(
why am i always chasing after time?
why time just cant be on my side?

ah! man is small man is limited.just too bad.face it.
ah! but that's not the excuse.
to continue to be accountable for the time u spent. bleah =P

all sorts of things are pilling up higher and higher
it seems like it gona crash down on me any moment ..
but let me not stop running .. continue to perserver..

I know He is with me , He has continuously letting me to taste His goodness!
sustaining me through...=)

i only hope that what i have on hand can be truly accounted for...

"Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness , and all these things will be added unto you"

tired? feel like giving up too ? don't k ... cause u are not alone facing such situation ...moreoever we got a BIG GOD above ! =D

hello..just sat formy physics test...yar i was panic ..very...that it takes about half of the duration tof the paper for me to cool down..that's alot...ok..didn complete the paper as usual .. and .. im not very optimistic about passing this test ...

haha..i realise something i had been talking about physics all day ! hello! that's not the way loh...my life is not about physics!! aha..im gona ban myself from talking about physics ...

let's talk about holistic eduacation ...haha ..acutally im thankful that im exposed to all sorts of area in ac..yar...spors music and accademic ... stretched ..truly..=P ok that is quite out of point ...

i love fridays ...helps me to catch my breathe .. =P anyway yar...everyone is talking about promos ...haha 6-8 weeks more?

i like today devotion too ...he shared about this big big banner that write"God is on our side whom shall we be afraid ?"

step back and think again if two methodist school happens to compete with each other and each put up this banner as a moral support for their own school....does that maen that God will stand only at one side of the people ...

but God is constant how is it possible for him to be bias? so he ended with we should say "we are on God's side ( standing firm at his side of righteouness) whom shall i be afriad?"

=P being educated in a methodist school ...somethimes we use versse without much thinking and it become misused...so i must be really careful in what i say..=) make sure what i say has depth and meaning..boohoohooo! =D

ok... i feel rather guilty of screaming at my sis just now .. didn't control my anger well enough..was trying to crack my head on that phy Qn and she just provoke me at really a wrong time ...well....hmm..

physics has a detrimental efffect on me ? haha .. well... a scoope ice-cream did cheer me up instantly...waha...the invention of ice-cream is brilliant! haha =P

yup going back school tomorrow ....i guess everyone hopes that holidays will be even longer right?

I think now the greatest challenge for me is to really discipline myself and use my extra free periods wisely ... not just stoning around in sch..

haha...guess what i succeded in not giving in to snacks today !!! what an accomplishment ..the night is young time to sleep ..then tomolo can wohooohooo...in school!!=P

hey mr physics...im gona win you over !! >.<

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
quite a familiar verse ya? but God's Word is always relevent , it stills minister to me. =D

yox is anyone missing my blog entries? aha ... i rather miss the leisure of typing in entries .. seriously is hard for me to blog .. cause once im online i will talk non stop by the time i know it will be late midnight ... ahaha .. so therefor i concluded i have been guai recently..=P

actually not very true .. my "hobby" now is sleeping .... but cant sleep now cause the ice mocha is too effective ... haha..but i appreciated that cup of ice mocha..!!=D and i have lots of indigested food ... cux i ate my dinner at 12am! imust say is supper...haha ..

i enjoyed today ... national day ...my first time of spending it with the woo and her friend d ?haha ..i dunno how to spell her name...paisae! ran and ran... just to catch the glimpse of the fireworks ...haha...ohwell ...yar..we did but not the full view is blocked by that "durian" =P i enjoyed the best part of the day is really just sat at the cafe with them ..and at the skygarden playing guitar and singing songs that praise our Father in Heaven... so nice and peaceful ... haha ...how i wish A level end faster and i can get more leisure time ...haha .. yeah .. i miss the time of playing guitar and singing with my dear friends ...is really nice when u and your small group of friends gather together and worship ...=D

it is funny to see the woo learnt her chinese ... haha ...and yeah ! finally someone stands at the same side as me! haha.. how happy i am ! heheee ...

today i participated the Family Day organised by my church... as i reflect i wonder had i done my part? haix ... feels a bit guilty ...=S

watched Charlie with ac gang of friends yesterday...hmm..is rather disappointing to me .. but hmm..well ..its audience more for a whole family kind ? therefore it must accomodate ?

wat else ? haha ...im rather disorganise .. cant have proper thoughts .. but hmm...well ..today is a an enjoyable day...things are doing fine for me i guess ... just that phy test is coming up on friday ..gona tear my hair off soon...hahaha ...=P one more day left for me to study ...goodnight people.Zzzzz....

Our faithful God's plan and timing is perfect. =)

i stinks ! yet i cant bathe ... bathrooms are not available...im deprived of sleep!!! hahaha ... but anyway i went to a good concert just now with my dad..i think that is the first time that i actually went to such a concert with my dad.

It is a percussion ensemble ... surprsingly my dad enjoyed it ... it is done by Singapore Chinese Orchestra with 3 other percussion bands from Korea China and Europe. Actually chinese orchestra are not that "dull or old-fashion" . They sound really cool today and the audience participation brought the performance to the climax . AH! make me feel like joining CO again..hahaa..im so horrible ..jack of all trades ... so greedy ..wanna learnt everything ...

my eyes are really getting smaller and smaller ...im still waiting!!!! i wana bathe i wana sleep! i wana protest! ohno ...im talking rubbish again ... =P

does anyone buy lottery ?! i got a stack of surveys awaiting !!! who wana help me?!

*yawnx* real tired .................... looking forward to holidays but yet not looking forward ...........
haha ... stresses are piling up again !!!

firstly demoralised...... when practising harp today seriously i cannot make it ..i keep on panic and cannot play the right note...and there's only me and alo ..so is unlike in band ...others blasing sound can cover ur awful playing...so what im playing is gona be obvious..ahhh....scared! monday is the perofrmance yet i still play so unsteady...

secondly, im seriously learning physcics very slowly...i have been telling my tutor i will ask him question but im still not prepared to ask ! He's too nice and too patient towards me until im so mad to myself that why am i so slow in understanding that he has to wait for me to ask him qn..he say i must know what i dunno...but there's here and there i dunno ..yet here and there i know ...how to compile everytthing and ask?

thirdly , they showed us our cohord performance in maths..ok im at the very far end of the sea .. which they call i have yet to reach the "shore"...haha...more chapters coming up ...2D trigo..vectors...more graphs...maths induction...wopps...need practice..thx abi for telling me her study tips...i think it helps...=P so im gona start doing at least 2-3qn of maths everyday..then wun pile up the tutorials...

haha....okie hope it didn demoralise u about studying..actually studying in really nice ... im serious ...just that mastering it is difficult...
*stresses attack* haha...so hide where?!!! evacuate !!!!hurry! haha..ok lame ..
but yup ... today's devotion was "trust in the Lord with all your heart and all your mind and all your soul,and He will make ur paths straight"
is so easy to depend on your own strength in the end u wear urself out...there's only one place that we can run to that is under the shadow of the Almighty ... where we can renew our strength from and continue to run the race...blab blab blab...i feel like running too...oo..tomorrow is body combat ! hahaha..yeah ! more fats can be burnt off...haha ..
anyway let's not give up...studying is fun wat! right?!=P

key phrase for me this week :

to complete the portion that God has assigned to me ...

hard!tough!but practise strict self-discipline ... get strengthned through prayers ... then..i will receive the complete joy! =D

today has been a long day ~ haha .. did a number of things ... west area retreat ended this morning ... of course it certaintly remind me and tells me that i still got lots lots lots things to work on and once again changed my percepective... =) this is my first area retreat! haha ~

and i had my GP lesson with BJ ! haha ... i remembered what i learnt k ... i learnt QKT ,MEAL and SPERM... don't tell u what it stands for ...bleah..=P haha ..k lame..but im really very thankful that she can have the patience to go through and analys my promblem of writing a compo ....! my goodness she didn't vomit blood on my atrocious compo loh! haha

then off i went to trim my hair ..since there is still time before the service and i have no other time ... yup i cutted my fringe! wohohoooo! =D it turn out nice unexpectatelly.. i didn really trust that a downstair hairdresser can cut well...hmm...ahem...yup reminder~ cannot judge book by its cover!!!! haha...the hairdresser is nice...haha maybe i will just do my hair there next time =D

of course! the most signficant thing for today...our Fairifeld founder's day ! cum 2004 graduation service!!! =D=D=D is really back to "home" felt really homely ... miss the friends .. im really very grateful..able to sing praises at our very own hall again and when singing the school song..it's so different..

this time round when i sing the school song is not like the other times...is a reflection for me...looking back the four years i had in fairfield...truly without God i cant imagine how my 4 years life in sec.sch will be ...what a person i will become..

how He had sustained me with everything He is through the 4years is amazing...how He discipline me ... to make turn to a better person for His purpose...how He teach me new things each day through all means...showed me how much He love me ...I see the beautiful works that God has done in my precious friends' life too..is really a joy! i see how He reveals Himself to a person who has never intented to believe in Him...all these things i encounter are truly amazing and yar it will be a very significant part in my fairfield memories.His works are great and mighty!...=D

Fairfield is a unique school ...cause God place the most important part in school ...and then truly we can be " a happy fairsian" i used to think the sch song sounds childish ... but today i found the esscence in the school song...=D=D=D

"You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hands
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to you and And I wait on you...

I'll sing to you Lord a hymn of love
For your faithfulness to me
And I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go through it all "

Dear Heavenly Father,thank you. =)

poo~! i woke up with a bad mood today ... but haha~ the bodycobat makes me feel better and refresh ?
i analyse something ... little sleep and being hungry makes me grumpy ! haha ~
there's is no chinese lesson today..should i rejoice about it? haha...that means i got one more free period that add up to 6 free periods! excluding lunch...of course im gonna spent these time to study my physics ...it is quite depressing though i sit down and stare i still cant get it ... many people don't get me why i choose phy over chem...haha...well...phy is more logical to me loh~ =D

tomorrow is founder's day service...hmm...i feel like going for the dinner ... but then is so ex...don't think my parents would be happy about it ... moreoever i wanna see yuen yuen ~ so she should have the right to choose where she wanna have the dinner ~ ...hope that tomorrow is a good catching up day ... =D

brr...still miss fairfield alot..today while walking to the sport complex heard fairfield having their( the speakers were loud) hmm..is Ms Lim...wonder whether is she still mad with out batch...haha...

today is gonna be quite a long tiring day have to preapre for the upcoming competiotion is really taxing to my tiny little brain.....ok! i shall be positive about it or else it will be a miserable for me ~ =D lalalalala~

note 1 : [royce] chocolate is super duper heavenly nice ~!!! no wonder so ex...=D
note 2 : i need to practise lots more for the upcoming harp performance......brrr....=S
note 3: i support m3 junyang!!! =D=D=D
note 4 : i have not done my regular english excercises ... so off to do work!!! =P

P.S. i can remember more than half i learnt yesterday!! haha...!

hm..im currently doing the 1100words excercises ... it is an assestment that suppose to let me learn 1100vocabulary ~ so to learn a word i must use it right? here it goes...=P

my meeting with joanne was a fortuitous one.
I'm not an ilk of "ah lian"
I think I tend to be a person who wear one's heart on one's sleeve.
I don't like to wash dirty linen in public.
I have a ferocious mastiff at home.
Everyone has a integral role on earth.

P.S. these sentence are originated from Ms Lee Wan Xian Christa ... it maybe myths but it may be truths too ~ hehehee~>.<

Where is my remuneration for learning so many vocabs in one day ?!!!!!!! =D=P
wahahaha~ who want me to be his or her english student? im hardworking loh! haha...we shall see..whether i can still remember this tomorrow.....haha~=D

hey ~ i planned my thoughts but u know what..i forgot!! haha ~ yeap had my physics SPA it is on rotational oscillation .. hmm..is this the right term? anyway yar miss out a lot of steps didn complete ~ but ... though is not good, is better than i expected ~ i was really scared...>.<

yeah! i saw joanne today ~ is a suprise ! haha ..didn expect her to be really in J.E .. haha ...mugging is good what that means i put in consistent conscious effort to study ! then wun cramp last min right?haha ... so joanne u must start mugging like me! or another alternative is transplant ur brainy to me!!=P

d.x once said mugging contains negative substance which i find it quite true ...studying should be a privilage right? hmmm...

"friends are friends forever if the Lord is the Lord of them.."
haha ..though we can't see each other often .. but im still very encouraged when i see friends are continue to seek Him and striving to shine for Him despite the busyness in school...=D and haha...im very comforted on the thought that i got a hope that is i will meet u all in heaven !! haha..urgh...haha..how i wish i can express my words more romantically...hahaha ~ ok! let's start stuyding ...=P yeah!

haha ~ just to note this down ...alodie said : " woah ur braces is blab blab blab...and electrifying!"haha i cant remember the vocabs that she used before the word electrifying ..haha~ this is my first time hearing someone commented so much on my braces..yeap my braces colour is not dark blue..and i feel pain! can munch on things now...only can chew...hey alo ur english vocab is power! =P are u going to teachme some?haha ~

tomorrow is Physics SPA and im not prepared... i haven't bought my set square ~ please remind me...haha~ ok off to study... harpist are going to have performance on national day...and that means lots of pratices are demanded..i mean i need to practise doubly hard..(it just reminded me how we practise for band SYF..yar..i miss..).and we are going to have our dress on! haha...i wonder how is look ..it is $38...hmm...

today is sis birthday ! my tiny present for her is not ready..gonna give her a belated one ~ hmm..... and i can't afford a big yam cake so i bought her a small slice one from San Ann that she is craving for...ok off to study!=D

yox ~ you know what? i got lots of chinese things to do..haha ~ yar im in the "making of a chinese teacher" process..i got chinese test tomorrow haven learn yet is 惯用语, i find it quite hard..cant remember~ i got chinese project to be handed in this week then got one week of chinese newspaper for me to summarize which i haven..only manage to summarise one ... and 2months of chinese news for me to "swallow" for the upcoming chinese quiz competition ... ahh..obviously we can't win .. cause we are last min in preparing our notes and we never read the newspaper daily ..how bad... and obviously the HC or NJ or blab will win ... haha..but i don't mind wearing the school blazer ~ haha ..i haven get a chance to wear it!hehee~ but im gonna extract my tooth on the competition date itself ! aww..im gona look ugly in that nice smart looking blazer!haha ...anyway nvm...im gona look pretty 2years later?haha ~ anyway im pretty now!!haha!!=P cause im wonderfully and uniquelly created in the image of God mah..so im pretty!hahaha~

today is 儿童主日学主日.. and the theme for this celebration is 长大成人.. that means we cannot be a baby..drink milk...we must grow up and eat solid food! the pastor gave us an anology ... she say isn't it scary if a 10+20+ person u see now is still drinking milk for his or her meals? and crawling on the floor? so we must grow grow grow!!grow not only physically but spiritually too! haha ...that's my goal for now too~! but there's really alot of things to learn ! and how i wish i can just learn everything in one day ! haha~

today while sitting at macdonal, i discovered that sitting beside me are adults ... nothing unusual...just that i realise im not gona be a youth in the max.5years time!!! my goodness! scary eh? ... and im reminded that .. hey youth is really a prime time to reach out to your friends..cuase i think it is during your youth u can be in contact with so many people..and yar youth is really a very precious time...hmm....

yup ~ as it is going to be another week..i read this verse today .. hope that it will encourage u all too as it encouraged me ... to keep on going despite it may be a very tiring week ahead ... =)

"All athletes practise strict self-control and they do it to wina prize that will fade away,but we do it for an eternal prize." 1 Corinthians 9:25

yup! self-control! ban myself from going online to chat since i got many unfinished work~ and seriously continue to perserver with joy in this coming week ~ let's jiayou together k !? =D

yox just completed an online chinese quiz at our school website. Hm.i think it brought me to a higher level in chinese. Learnt new terms... haha i think is a good quiz..challenging! =P but i didn sent in my results .. simply because of one thing i don't want to go up on stage to collect prize. i think is super duper embarassing. =P

if i continue to blab on i can blab alot of things .. because in one day there can be alot of things happening .. and i admit ...im naggy~ haha ..so i shld just stop here .
yup ~ i set my mind im not going online to chat until the weekend ... and i got to say bye to my blog for a few days .. =P

shut out the past and concentrate on the future - ah bing told me this before . yeap ~ i deleted some messages hopefully i can really finally move on . =) *relieved* im growing! hee~!

hehee...yoyoyo!i think i am going to super long winded today..and im quite hungry now...my stomach is rambling...haaha ~ but today is a super happy day for me! i really enjoyed myself at NDP! so let me tell you how exciting was the NDP preview today ! =P care to listen ?haha..

first thing first , i really thank God for the safety of the parchuter.. do you realise that today the weather was quite bad.. i mean for them is a disadvantage i guess.. there is not much wind today... and it is quite cloudy i think ..i was worried when the parachuters were hanging up in the air abit longer than usual...but they did make it! landed safety! hurray! =P

secondly ... i saw my pri.sch form teacher !!! what a surprise ! hahaha ..and her cute little son named "Emmanuel" ..she asked me be4 is it too big for a name?haha.. wanted to go over to talk to her more but i was suppose to be on duty and should not be blocking the VIPs..so cant talk to her for long .. but yup! happy to see her ... the more shocking thing is i realise who is her hubby ... it was the man beside the staff,Karen..i was complaning to Karen how extra we are because ushers are more than enough..then we very ai shou ai jiao...then he tou xiao loh...haha..so funny...at the later part of the NDP we got to sit at the very front row to watch since there are empty seats...and he is really really very lame person ... he was describing the performer's dressings as potatoe chips ..colours representing different flavour ... lightings represeting cooking and heating and cooling...so funny ...me and Shao Fern just cant stop laughing..=P

oo...before that i did an embarrasing thing again!when i went to seat... i actually sat on top of the bun! and it burst...as if i had farted..the man infront of me turned back and look..and Shao Fern laughing again...haha ..so embarrasing..yeah she has big wide smile ! cant stop laughing and smiling =P
.. i really enjoy working with the HQ staff from the MOE ..Karen,Shao Fern,Zachia and Agnus(didn manage to take pix with her today!she was deployed to other place) they are really very nice people ... i was talking to Shao Fern throughout the whole NDP .. haha .. we talk lots of staff just like friends .. cant believe it she is 12 years older than me yet we still can have the same frequency haha...not only her many others too ... =P and haha...upon talking im sosososo comforted that she is a christian ...haha ..then we start talking about walking with God...haha! and she got my contact! haha...i want her contact too ..then i told her my reason ... can mobilise her next time if YFC needs help...and she told me! that's part of her reaason too! haha..not for YFC but other things i think..and her church is at bible house! haha..cool~! next time if i go bible house maybe can bump into her~ haha...im really happy to see christians among the people in MOE .. there's a sense of comfort that maybe it shows that God is always moving and working among our midst? =) u get what i mean? actually im not a person who knows how to express myself well...plesae bear with me ~ haha =P hope that we can work again next time!she taught me english too! haha..she taught me what is a montessori! haha...is an education system originated from other countries .. children go through learning through experiencing things...unlike PAP system .. where it is a structure kind of education learning...haha...oo...this helped my GP on education i guess?! =Phehee!
can you guess which one is shao fern...she just totally blend into one of us...haha~
oo...i also got a chance to talk to one friend from acjc ...and i don't know how did we mange to talk about God.. and he was telling me he don't dare to accept christianity because of the objection from his dad ...i cant do or say much but what i can do is keep him in prayer ..and let God takecontrol over it...=P this small little incident ... provokes my thinking about evangelism...hmmm.....=P

i wonder is it really possible for a guy and a girl to maintain pure friendship? i think is really not easy..both must be mature enough to not to look at every guy or girl as a potential bf or gf i guess...

i didn watch fireworks today..but iwatched it last week! haha ..anyway the most fun part of today is taking photos!!!!!!!! hahahaa ... we manage to fulfil our promise and "dream" to take with the policeman!!!!!!

hahaha and there's bonus! with a soldier too!!!

haha...so funny!!! the whole process is really very kiddish but enjoyable ... is fun to be crazy and mad ..hahaha...oo..we took photo with our I/C too ... aww..so sad cant work with them on actual national day ..hopefully we got chance to work again ~ =D yup! and is really nice to hang out with Zhen Ling Zhi Lei ( which i still doubts they are cousins...hmm..=P) trisha, qingyu and cux kay ..haha...thought this is really a qulity time of sharing fun and knowing each other better..=P happy happy!

haha...i know i haven beautify my blog...haha..michelle! help!haha... i think i must limit myself this coming week..to only go online twice each week..yup..tomorrow will be my last chance to go online and i will practise...self discipline!!!!! hehhee..yipee! happy day happy day ! all thanks to who ?! haha..yup my Fahter in Heaven .. who placed new people for me to know ..hopefully meeting new people is not something just passing by but something that is ... i don't know how to say...hope u all get my meaning ..hehehee..=D gdnite!

guess what i saw when i step into my house today..?! the arrival of my pastor!!! at my house..is like a shock for me..pa and ma also never inform me one..suddenly the house so clean and tidy ...haha ..got new floormat somemore...haha..and because of the sudden shock i end up greeting my pastor without greeting my parents...how rude...! haha... but im glad my parents are not very particular about it...=P

hey ! today im indeed full of energy u know! I NEVER DOZE OFF IN CLASS TODAY !!! WOAH! im so happy about it!!! hahaha ~ really thank God .. i mean i seriously don't know why im so hyper today..that's why i cant doze off ..and what makes me so hyper ? hmm...i think it is because of my serious prayer... i realise there is a difference between talking to God and praying to God .. hmm ..i don't know is that called a difference... i always talk to God when im walking or whinning or whatever emotions...but when i get down seriously and pray...is different! am i right in saying like that... please do correct me if wrong.. i don't wish to stumble anyone .. =P

and today is my class mate's birthday ~ we celebrated her birthday ..and sir bought a personalise strawberry pink cake! i like the cake!is like the cake that i use to draw when im young...hehehehee... it has been a long time since i last saw a big cake! is so sweet ....=P aww...attention! i want a big pink cake for my next year birthday k?! haha ~and is creamy...haha..i like cream!

but yeah i know...is fattening ..goodness...doing bodycombat for PE lesson become a waste... bodycombat is really hillarious..is something like aerobic which is what i have done in sec2 ... but this time round..people are more enthusiatic about bodycombat therefore... is makes it more fun ... the trainee is funny with his stunts..the whole thing is just funny...BUT healthy =P haha~

You know what i went library today .... and something happen! i actually interested in picking up one of the fiction book and read! haha...im impressed..in the past reading to me is really a "no thanks" thing...is it because i always go library during my free period im "soaked" into the books ..and beginning to "have feelings for them" ahahaahhaa!=P how funny

the weather is soooo nice ~ im going to sleep ... enjoy my precious moments of sleeping ... =D tomorrow i am going NDP preview again! and i got to usher the red sector again which is where the VIP are sitting...that means i got a good view again!! yeah! me and kay had promised to take photo with policemen..will we suceed? haha..meeting my new found friends tomorrow ... aww..i must be prepared for their bully..hahaa - joking!

can see my hyperness today? hahaha..yeah it must cease now..going to do QT and off to sleep..=)

Yup , i receive the letter today. So opening this to the public ...should i drop a subject or should i hold on to it? I am unease because i feel that it contradicts with my initial intention to appeal to take 4As .. any comments?! =P

And one more ... should i cut my hair ?! haha.. i like my long silky hair...yet i think long hair is boring i want it short...hahahahaha ~ sounds so vain ..oh well ..nitey people ~ ;P

not to live under the shadow of others but only live under the shadows of our Almighty Father .

I think is hard. I often look up to other people's life .. xian mu them ... but haha ... thank God for reminding me ... He has different purpose in different people's life . What is in my life , is what He intended to put in , to mould me into someone that is for His purpose. =) Each purpose is unqiue only you can accomplish it. =) cool~ i got a special and unqiue task ... only i can accomplish it ok ... it's me me me!!! haha ~ =P

lots of thoughts to straighten out ..
woman wanna be mission 2 : be a prayer warrior ... (woah! i think it tests my patience =P)

anyway ..i doze off during tutorials ...AGAIN!!! i realli realli realli realli ! don't want to doze off one...help!!! im going to turn in now! so that i will be full of energy tomorrow...

I am going to expect a letter to ask me drop one subject...actually im really relieved.haha~ lazy me~ =) nitey people...

*yawnx* tired .. but just want to drop by since my computer is available! haha~ yeah brother has been the "king" , always occupying the computer .. poor citizens like me have to wait .. =P

i have been dozing off during tutorials ! i seriously want to be awake .. is so rude to doze off! but im helpless... especially today i dozed off during morning assembly announcment .. i know i keep trying to open my eyes but it just wanna be close...im angry with my eyes... haha~ joking~ =P

today i had my first girl outing with team 1 .. haha ...it's good!.. never had it before with team 1 girls ..i learnt something~! when we go heaven we will inherit one another ... cool ~ cant wait ... haha ~ it will be really a very very joyous occasion ...=D

today we had harp exchange with PLMGS ..and they played their SYF piece...is super super powerful and nice! woah~ and when is my turn to play.. haha..i just smoke my way true...aww..will really wish to master harp skills...but is quite impossible... besides i don't have piano background makes things harder... oo...we got this wax figure of a harp from our seniors ..i think is really very nice and sweet of our seniors! i like the gift a lot~ thx seniors! =D

ok nothing much to write .. cause im tired...better do my tutorials before i turn off to sleeping mode... haha~ boo! tomorrow will be another great day ! =D

today is a "grace day" .
i past grace's house todae (makes me miss grace) , met another grace at a busstop . And i was reminded about the word "grace" through watching the Fund raising show for cancer patients for a few minutes .My father is a cancer patient too . But he was dignosed when i was in primary school. So it is truly by God's grace, that my father can live til now and there's no sign of relapse so far (i guess) .So i got to treat my father nicer right? this is even harder! i think the hardest people to be nice too are your family members, not that they are mean to you that's why is hard .. is just that the level of patience is lowest .. why ah? actually in our daily life , God's grace is always shown to us ... He gave us air to breathe! food to eat! firm ground to walk on ...

what is grace ? it is receiving something that we don't deserve.=)

and the whole day this song keep on ring in my head! is so nice! the lyrics speaks so true! haha~ let me share it with you ..=)

Everything To Me - by Avalon
I grew up in Sunday school
I memorized the Golden Rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
Because He changed my life when He became…
Chorus:
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now every day I'm prayingJust to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might se that He is…
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying You’ve been…

remember to always give thanks to Him . not to takes things for granted. =)
ok! off to sleep .... school is starting again!!shall be positive about it ~ ohyeah! i almost complete my maths tutorial...for the first time before my tutorial class...~ woah! =D

i didn't know my entry is so long...just to add~ i am trying to write in correct english ... so feel free to amend my english errors... i want to improve me english!!! =D

ok...i thought that i will never be a blogger...and *boom* suddenly i become one...ahahaha...weirdo... yeah i often have lots of weird thoughts...not dirty thought ok ...so im just trying to my werid thoughts into action..then i can remember what weird thoughts i had be4! cool! =P
ok...i better just drop in an entry and beauifythe blog sometime later...and get down to work ...muaha..yesterday during my QT (quiet time with God) i said the sinner's prayer again! i think being a person who grows in a christian family... i seriously have no idea when did i officially accepted Christ... so i want to say a formal one ... so ..should i consider myself as a reborn one for the first day ? ok! i don't mine starting from the very beginning again! okok !i checked out! todae is 9th of july!!! woah ! is such a great great date !because....is exactly one month after my BIRTHDAY!!!muaha~ hey lots of ppl still owe me my birthday pressi ..eh? nvm! im forgiving..muaha~hahhaaha~
ok...don't be luo shuo liao~ i realise that maybe the past few years..in my relationship with God, im always in the receiving end...and i seriously think i never anchored my identity in Christ alone.. i always thought i did...i was really sad and guilty that i wasted few years ...which i can use it to really grow in depth ... yup..just like wat boonjin say...i always go for breadth instead of depth..that's what my sis say too ... i though it was something like yeah that's me..since primary sch..nothing wrong..but that's something really going realli wrong! don't you think so?
my Christian life cannot be staggnered!

haha ..this link to how God truly bless me with friends.. im really really really very very very thankful for that.."a cloud of witnesses" who share the same faith as me ... and wake me up from my idlesness...haha... true enough i should "consider it pure joy" persevere other all kinds of trails that test my faith ... and i will be mature and complete... i have been a negative testimony.... always grumble... God placed many non christian in my life too ... since i had accepted Christ...my life should no longer be a life that always grumble...but a life that is full of light and joy!

final conclusion : exams and studies are my trails because is a test of my faith, i must perserver and not to give it up so easily ,though im not going to major in a science field..but you see ... God gave me the chance to take 4As .. im not suppose to take two sciences ... so i shall let my promo decide...which is in how many weeks time? haha~

so first step of woman wana be : woman after God's heart
(haha...i think my blog add is cool~hahaha consist of my initial [wan])
- always give thanks and bring joy to ppl ard me
- not to laze but be a hardworking servant,complete the portion that God gave me(tt means must use my time wisely!)
-be genuine concern towards people (others before self)

that's about it ~ im going to do my work and go for NDP!!! ohyeah~ =P sha lalalala