today has been a long day ~ haha .. did a number of things ... west area retreat ended this morning ... of course it certaintly remind me and tells me that i still got lots lots lots things to work on and once again changed my percepective... =) this is my first area retreat! haha ~

and i had my GP lesson with BJ ! haha ... i remembered what i learnt k ... i learnt QKT ,MEAL and SPERM... don't tell u what it stands for ...bleah..=P haha ..k lame..but im really very thankful that she can have the patience to go through and analys my promblem of writing a compo ....! my goodness she didn't vomit blood on my atrocious compo loh! haha

then off i went to trim my hair ..since there is still time before the service and i have no other time ... yup i cutted my fringe! wohohoooo! =D it turn out nice unexpectatelly.. i didn really trust that a downstair hairdresser can cut well...hmm...ahem...yup reminder~ cannot judge book by its cover!!!! haha...the hairdresser is nice...haha maybe i will just do my hair there next time =D

of course! the most signficant thing for today...our Fairifeld founder's day ! cum 2004 graduation service!!! =D=D=D is really back to "home" felt really homely ... miss the friends .. im really very grateful..able to sing praises at our very own hall again and when singing the school song..it's so different..

this time round when i sing the school song is not like the other times...is a reflection for me...looking back the four years i had in fairfield...truly without God i cant imagine how my 4 years life in sec.sch will be ...what a person i will become..

how He had sustained me with everything He is through the 4years is amazing...how He discipline me ... to make turn to a better person for His purpose...how He teach me new things each day through all means...showed me how much He love me ...I see the beautiful works that God has done in my precious friends' life too..is really a joy! i see how He reveals Himself to a person who has never intented to believe in Him...all these things i encounter are truly amazing and yar it will be a very significant part in my fairfield memories.His works are great and mighty!...=D

Fairfield is a unique school ...cause God place the most important part in school ...and then truly we can be " a happy fairsian" i used to think the sch song sounds childish ... but today i found the esscence in the school song...=D=D=D

"You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hands
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to you and And I wait on you...

I'll sing to you Lord a hymn of love
For your faithfulness to me
And I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go through it all "

Dear Heavenly Father,thank you. =)

poo~! i woke up with a bad mood today ... but haha~ the bodycobat makes me feel better and refresh ?
i analyse something ... little sleep and being hungry makes me grumpy ! haha ~
there's is no chinese lesson today..should i rejoice about it? haha...that means i got one more free period that add up to 6 free periods! excluding lunch...of course im gonna spent these time to study my physics ...it is quite depressing though i sit down and stare i still cant get it ... many people don't get me why i choose phy over chem...haha...well...phy is more logical to me loh~ =D

tomorrow is founder's day service...hmm...i feel like going for the dinner ... but then is so ex...don't think my parents would be happy about it ... moreoever i wanna see yuen yuen ~ so she should have the right to choose where she wanna have the dinner ~ ...hope that tomorrow is a good catching up day ... =D

brr...still miss fairfield alot..today while walking to the sport complex heard fairfield having their( the speakers were loud) hmm..is Ms Lim...wonder whether is she still mad with out batch...haha...

today is gonna be quite a long tiring day have to preapre for the upcoming competiotion is really taxing to my tiny little brain.....ok! i shall be positive about it or else it will be a miserable for me ~ =D lalalalala~

note 1 : [royce] chocolate is super duper heavenly nice ~!!! no wonder so ex...=D
note 2 : i need to practise lots more for the upcoming harp performance......brrr....=S
note 3: i support m3 junyang!!! =D=D=D
note 4 : i have not done my regular english excercises ... so off to do work!!! =P

P.S. i can remember more than half i learnt yesterday!! haha...!

hm..im currently doing the 1100words excercises ... it is an assestment that suppose to let me learn 1100vocabulary ~ so to learn a word i must use it right? here it goes...=P

my meeting with joanne was a fortuitous one.
I'm not an ilk of "ah lian"
I think I tend to be a person who wear one's heart on one's sleeve.
I don't like to wash dirty linen in public.
I have a ferocious mastiff at home.
Everyone has a integral role on earth.

P.S. these sentence are originated from Ms Lee Wan Xian Christa ... it maybe myths but it may be truths too ~ hehehee~>.<

Where is my remuneration for learning so many vocabs in one day ?!!!!!!! =D=P
wahahaha~ who want me to be his or her english student? im hardworking loh! haha...we shall see..whether i can still remember this tomorrow.....haha~=D

hey ~ i planned my thoughts but u know what..i forgot!! haha ~ yeap had my physics SPA it is on rotational oscillation .. hmm..is this the right term? anyway yar miss out a lot of steps didn complete ~ but ... though is not good, is better than i expected ~ i was really scared...>.<

yeah! i saw joanne today ~ is a suprise ! haha ..didn expect her to be really in J.E .. haha ...mugging is good what that means i put in consistent conscious effort to study ! then wun cramp last min right?haha ... so joanne u must start mugging like me! or another alternative is transplant ur brainy to me!!=P

d.x once said mugging contains negative substance which i find it quite true ...studying should be a privilage right? hmmm...

"friends are friends forever if the Lord is the Lord of them.."
haha ..though we can't see each other often .. but im still very encouraged when i see friends are continue to seek Him and striving to shine for Him despite the busyness in school...=D and haha...im very comforted on the thought that i got a hope that is i will meet u all in heaven !! haha..urgh...haha..how i wish i can express my words more romantically...hahaha ~ ok! let's start stuyding ...=P yeah!

haha ~ just to note this down ...alodie said : " woah ur braces is blab blab blab...and electrifying!"haha i cant remember the vocabs that she used before the word electrifying ..haha~ this is my first time hearing someone commented so much on my braces..yeap my braces colour is not dark blue..and i feel pain! can munch on things now...only can chew...hey alo ur english vocab is power! =P are u going to teachme some?haha ~

tomorrow is Physics SPA and im not prepared... i haven't bought my set square ~ please remind me...haha~ ok off to study... harpist are going to have performance on national day...and that means lots of pratices are demanded..i mean i need to practise doubly hard..(it just reminded me how we practise for band SYF..yar..i miss..).and we are going to have our dress on! haha...i wonder how is look ..it is $38...hmm...

today is sis birthday ! my tiny present for her is not ready..gonna give her a belated one ~ hmm..... and i can't afford a big yam cake so i bought her a small slice one from San Ann that she is craving for...ok off to study!=D

yox ~ you know what? i got lots of chinese things to do..haha ~ yar im in the "making of a chinese teacher" process..i got chinese test tomorrow haven learn yet is 惯用语, i find it quite hard..cant remember~ i got chinese project to be handed in this week then got one week of chinese newspaper for me to summarize which i haven..only manage to summarise one ... and 2months of chinese news for me to "swallow" for the upcoming chinese quiz competition ... ahh..obviously we can't win .. cause we are last min in preparing our notes and we never read the newspaper daily ..how bad... and obviously the HC or NJ or blab will win ... haha..but i don't mind wearing the school blazer ~ haha ..i haven get a chance to wear it!hehee~ but im gonna extract my tooth on the competition date itself ! aww..im gona look ugly in that nice smart looking blazer!haha ...anyway nvm...im gona look pretty 2years later?haha ~ anyway im pretty now!!haha!!=P cause im wonderfully and uniquelly created in the image of God mah..so im pretty!hahaha~

today is 儿童主日学主日.. and the theme for this celebration is 长大成人.. that means we cannot be a baby..drink milk...we must grow up and eat solid food! the pastor gave us an anology ... she say isn't it scary if a 10+20+ person u see now is still drinking milk for his or her meals? and crawling on the floor? so we must grow grow grow!!grow not only physically but spiritually too! haha ...that's my goal for now too~! but there's really alot of things to learn ! and how i wish i can just learn everything in one day ! haha~

today while sitting at macdonal, i discovered that sitting beside me are adults ... nothing unusual...just that i realise im not gona be a youth in the max.5years time!!! my goodness! scary eh? ... and im reminded that .. hey youth is really a prime time to reach out to your friends..cuase i think it is during your youth u can be in contact with so many people..and yar youth is really a very precious time...hmm....

yup ~ as it is going to be another week..i read this verse today .. hope that it will encourage u all too as it encouraged me ... to keep on going despite it may be a very tiring week ahead ... =)

"All athletes practise strict self-control and they do it to wina prize that will fade away,but we do it for an eternal prize." 1 Corinthians 9:25

yup! self-control! ban myself from going online to chat since i got many unfinished work~ and seriously continue to perserver with joy in this coming week ~ let's jiayou together k !? =D

yox just completed an online chinese quiz at our school website. Hm.i think it brought me to a higher level in chinese. Learnt new terms... haha i think is a good quiz..challenging! =P but i didn sent in my results .. simply because of one thing i don't want to go up on stage to collect prize. i think is super duper embarassing. =P

if i continue to blab on i can blab alot of things .. because in one day there can be alot of things happening .. and i admit ...im naggy~ haha ..so i shld just stop here .
yup ~ i set my mind im not going online to chat until the weekend ... and i got to say bye to my blog for a few days .. =P

shut out the past and concentrate on the future - ah bing told me this before . yeap ~ i deleted some messages hopefully i can really finally move on . =) *relieved* im growing! hee~!

hehee...yoyoyo!i think i am going to super long winded today..and im quite hungry now...my stomach is rambling...haaha ~ but today is a super happy day for me! i really enjoyed myself at NDP! so let me tell you how exciting was the NDP preview today ! =P care to listen ?haha..

first thing first , i really thank God for the safety of the parchuter.. do you realise that today the weather was quite bad.. i mean for them is a disadvantage i guess.. there is not much wind today... and it is quite cloudy i think ..i was worried when the parachuters were hanging up in the air abit longer than usual...but they did make it! landed safety! hurray! =P

secondly ... i saw my pri.sch form teacher !!! what a surprise ! hahaha ..and her cute little son named "Emmanuel" ..she asked me be4 is it too big for a name?haha.. wanted to go over to talk to her more but i was suppose to be on duty and should not be blocking the VIPs..so cant talk to her for long .. but yup! happy to see her ... the more shocking thing is i realise who is her hubby ... it was the man beside the staff,Karen..i was complaning to Karen how extra we are because ushers are more than enough..then we very ai shou ai jiao...then he tou xiao loh...haha..so funny...at the later part of the NDP we got to sit at the very front row to watch since there are empty seats...and he is really really very lame person ... he was describing the performer's dressings as potatoe chips ..colours representing different flavour ... lightings represeting cooking and heating and cooling...so funny ...me and Shao Fern just cant stop laughing..=P

oo...before that i did an embarrasing thing again!when i went to seat... i actually sat on top of the bun! and it burst...as if i had farted..the man infront of me turned back and look..and Shao Fern laughing again...haha ..so embarrasing..yeah she has big wide smile ! cant stop laughing and smiling =P
.. i really enjoy working with the HQ staff from the MOE ..Karen,Shao Fern,Zachia and Agnus(didn manage to take pix with her today!she was deployed to other place) they are really very nice people ... i was talking to Shao Fern throughout the whole NDP .. haha .. we talk lots of staff just like friends .. cant believe it she is 12 years older than me yet we still can have the same frequency haha...not only her many others too ... =P and haha...upon talking im sosososo comforted that she is a christian ...haha ..then we start talking about walking with God...haha! and she got my contact! haha...i want her contact too ..then i told her my reason ... can mobilise her next time if YFC needs help...and she told me! that's part of her reaason too! haha..not for YFC but other things i think..and her church is at bible house! haha..cool~! next time if i go bible house maybe can bump into her~ haha...im really happy to see christians among the people in MOE .. there's a sense of comfort that maybe it shows that God is always moving and working among our midst? =) u get what i mean? actually im not a person who knows how to express myself well...plesae bear with me ~ haha =P hope that we can work again next time!she taught me english too! haha..she taught me what is a montessori! haha...is an education system originated from other countries .. children go through learning through experiencing things...unlike PAP system .. where it is a structure kind of education learning...haha...oo...this helped my GP on education i guess?! =Phehee!
can you guess which one is shao fern...she just totally blend into one of us...haha~
oo...i also got a chance to talk to one friend from acjc ...and i don't know how did we mange to talk about God.. and he was telling me he don't dare to accept christianity because of the objection from his dad ...i cant do or say much but what i can do is keep him in prayer ..and let God takecontrol over it...=P this small little incident ... provokes my thinking about evangelism...hmmm.....=P

i wonder is it really possible for a guy and a girl to maintain pure friendship? i think is really not easy..both must be mature enough to not to look at every guy or girl as a potential bf or gf i guess...

i didn watch fireworks today..but iwatched it last week! haha ..anyway the most fun part of today is taking photos!!!!!!!! hahahaa ... we manage to fulfil our promise and "dream" to take with the policeman!!!!!!

hahaha and there's bonus! with a soldier too!!!

haha...so funny!!! the whole process is really very kiddish but enjoyable ... is fun to be crazy and mad ..hahaha...oo..we took photo with our I/C too ... aww..so sad cant work with them on actual national day ..hopefully we got chance to work again ~ =D yup! and is really nice to hang out with Zhen Ling Zhi Lei ( which i still doubts they are cousins...hmm..=P) trisha, qingyu and cux kay ..haha...thought this is really a qulity time of sharing fun and knowing each other better..=P happy happy!

haha...i know i haven beautify my blog...haha..michelle! help!haha... i think i must limit myself this coming week..to only go online twice each week..yup..tomorrow will be my last chance to go online and i will practise...self discipline!!!!! hehhee..yipee! happy day happy day ! all thanks to who ?! haha..yup my Fahter in Heaven .. who placed new people for me to know ..hopefully meeting new people is not something just passing by but something that is ... i don't know how to say...hope u all get my meaning ..hehehee..=D gdnite!

guess what i saw when i step into my house today..?! the arrival of my pastor!!! at my house..is like a shock for me..pa and ma also never inform me one..suddenly the house so clean and tidy ...haha ..got new floormat somemore...haha..and because of the sudden shock i end up greeting my pastor without greeting my parents...how rude...! haha... but im glad my parents are not very particular about it...=P

hey ! today im indeed full of energy u know! I NEVER DOZE OFF IN CLASS TODAY !!! WOAH! im so happy about it!!! hahaha ~ really thank God .. i mean i seriously don't know why im so hyper today..that's why i cant doze off ..and what makes me so hyper ? hmm...i think it is because of my serious prayer... i realise there is a difference between talking to God and praying to God .. hmm ..i don't know is that called a difference... i always talk to God when im walking or whinning or whatever emotions...but when i get down seriously and pray...is different! am i right in saying like that... please do correct me if wrong.. i don't wish to stumble anyone .. =P

and today is my class mate's birthday ~ we celebrated her birthday ..and sir bought a personalise strawberry pink cake! i like the cake!is like the cake that i use to draw when im young...hehehehee... it has been a long time since i last saw a big cake! is so sweet ....=P aww...attention! i want a big pink cake for my next year birthday k?! haha ~and is creamy...haha..i like cream!

but yeah i know...is fattening ..goodness...doing bodycombat for PE lesson become a waste... bodycombat is really hillarious..is something like aerobic which is what i have done in sec2 ... but this time round..people are more enthusiatic about bodycombat therefore... is makes it more fun ... the trainee is funny with his stunts..the whole thing is just funny...BUT healthy =P haha~

You know what i went library today .... and something happen! i actually interested in picking up one of the fiction book and read! haha...im impressed..in the past reading to me is really a "no thanks" thing...is it because i always go library during my free period im "soaked" into the books ..and beginning to "have feelings for them" ahahaahhaa!=P how funny

the weather is soooo nice ~ im going to sleep ... enjoy my precious moments of sleeping ... =D tomorrow i am going NDP preview again! and i got to usher the red sector again which is where the VIP are sitting...that means i got a good view again!! yeah! me and kay had promised to take photo with policemen..will we suceed? haha..meeting my new found friends tomorrow ... aww..i must be prepared for their bully..hahaa - joking!

can see my hyperness today? hahaha..yeah it must cease now..going to do QT and off to sleep..=)

Yup , i receive the letter today. So opening this to the public ...should i drop a subject or should i hold on to it? I am unease because i feel that it contradicts with my initial intention to appeal to take 4As .. any comments?! =P

And one more ... should i cut my hair ?! haha.. i like my long silky hair...yet i think long hair is boring i want it short...hahahahaha ~ sounds so vain ..oh well ..nitey people ~ ;P

not to live under the shadow of others but only live under the shadows of our Almighty Father .

I think is hard. I often look up to other people's life .. xian mu them ... but haha ... thank God for reminding me ... He has different purpose in different people's life . What is in my life , is what He intended to put in , to mould me into someone that is for His purpose. =) Each purpose is unqiue only you can accomplish it. =) cool~ i got a special and unqiue task ... only i can accomplish it ok ... it's me me me!!! haha ~ =P

lots of thoughts to straighten out ..
woman wanna be mission 2 : be a prayer warrior ... (woah! i think it tests my patience =P)

anyway ..i doze off during tutorials ...AGAIN!!! i realli realli realli realli ! don't want to doze off one...help!!! im going to turn in now! so that i will be full of energy tomorrow...

I am going to expect a letter to ask me drop one subject...actually im really relieved.haha~ lazy me~ =) nitey people...

*yawnx* tired .. but just want to drop by since my computer is available! haha~ yeah brother has been the "king" , always occupying the computer .. poor citizens like me have to wait .. =P

i have been dozing off during tutorials ! i seriously want to be awake .. is so rude to doze off! but im helpless... especially today i dozed off during morning assembly announcment .. i know i keep trying to open my eyes but it just wanna be close...im angry with my eyes... haha~ joking~ =P

today i had my first girl outing with team 1 .. haha ...it's good!.. never had it before with team 1 girls ..i learnt something~! when we go heaven we will inherit one another ... cool ~ cant wait ... haha ~ it will be really a very very joyous occasion ...=D

today we had harp exchange with PLMGS ..and they played their SYF piece...is super super powerful and nice! woah~ and when is my turn to play.. haha..i just smoke my way true...aww..will really wish to master harp skills...but is quite impossible... besides i don't have piano background makes things harder... oo...we got this wax figure of a harp from our seniors ..i think is really very nice and sweet of our seniors! i like the gift a lot~ thx seniors! =D

ok nothing much to write .. cause im tired...better do my tutorials before i turn off to sleeping mode... haha~ boo! tomorrow will be another great day ! =D

today is a "grace day" .
i past grace's house todae (makes me miss grace) , met another grace at a busstop . And i was reminded about the word "grace" through watching the Fund raising show for cancer patients for a few minutes .My father is a cancer patient too . But he was dignosed when i was in primary school. So it is truly by God's grace, that my father can live til now and there's no sign of relapse so far (i guess) .So i got to treat my father nicer right? this is even harder! i think the hardest people to be nice too are your family members, not that they are mean to you that's why is hard .. is just that the level of patience is lowest .. why ah? actually in our daily life , God's grace is always shown to us ... He gave us air to breathe! food to eat! firm ground to walk on ...

what is grace ? it is receiving something that we don't deserve.=)

and the whole day this song keep on ring in my head! is so nice! the lyrics speaks so true! haha~ let me share it with you ..=)

Everything To Me - by Avalon
I grew up in Sunday school
I memorized the Golden Rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
Because He changed my life when He became…
Chorus:
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now every day I'm prayingJust to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might se that He is…
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying You’ve been…

remember to always give thanks to Him . not to takes things for granted. =)
ok! off to sleep .... school is starting again!!shall be positive about it ~ ohyeah! i almost complete my maths tutorial...for the first time before my tutorial class...~ woah! =D

i didn't know my entry is so long...just to add~ i am trying to write in correct english ... so feel free to amend my english errors... i want to improve me english!!! =D

ok...i thought that i will never be a blogger...and *boom* suddenly i become one...ahahaha...weirdo... yeah i often have lots of weird thoughts...not dirty thought ok ...so im just trying to my werid thoughts into action..then i can remember what weird thoughts i had be4! cool! =P
ok...i better just drop in an entry and beauifythe blog sometime later...and get down to work ...muaha..yesterday during my QT (quiet time with God) i said the sinner's prayer again! i think being a person who grows in a christian family... i seriously have no idea when did i officially accepted Christ... so i want to say a formal one ... so ..should i consider myself as a reborn one for the first day ? ok! i don't mine starting from the very beginning again! okok !i checked out! todae is 9th of july!!! woah ! is such a great great date !because....is exactly one month after my BIRTHDAY!!!muaha~ hey lots of ppl still owe me my birthday pressi ..eh? nvm! im forgiving..muaha~hahhaaha~
ok...don't be luo shuo liao~ i realise that maybe the past few years..in my relationship with God, im always in the receiving end...and i seriously think i never anchored my identity in Christ alone.. i always thought i did...i was really sad and guilty that i wasted few years ...which i can use it to really grow in depth ... yup..just like wat boonjin say...i always go for breadth instead of depth..that's what my sis say too ... i though it was something like yeah that's me..since primary sch..nothing wrong..but that's something really going realli wrong! don't you think so?
my Christian life cannot be staggnered!

haha ..this link to how God truly bless me with friends.. im really really really very very very thankful for that.."a cloud of witnesses" who share the same faith as me ... and wake me up from my idlesness...haha... true enough i should "consider it pure joy" persevere other all kinds of trails that test my faith ... and i will be mature and complete... i have been a negative testimony.... always grumble... God placed many non christian in my life too ... since i had accepted Christ...my life should no longer be a life that always grumble...but a life that is full of light and joy!

final conclusion : exams and studies are my trails because is a test of my faith, i must perserver and not to give it up so easily ,though im not going to major in a science field..but you see ... God gave me the chance to take 4As .. im not suppose to take two sciences ... so i shall let my promo decide...which is in how many weeks time? haha~

so first step of woman wana be : woman after God's heart
(haha...i think my blog add is cool~hahaha consist of my initial [wan])
- always give thanks and bring joy to ppl ard me
- not to laze but be a hardworking servant,complete the portion that God gave me(tt means must use my time wisely!)
-be genuine concern towards people (others before self)

that's about it ~ im going to do my work and go for NDP!!! ohyeah~ =P sha lalalala