yox. yup. has been really busy preparing exam.everyday is like a rollar coaster to me . suddenly happy . suddenly stress. suddenly sad.haha .. after e conversation i decided to jot down some reflection during this period of time. =)

yup. no doubt this period is really really stressing .
i tot to myself. how come im feeling so stressed?
the most truthful ans: im scared of retaining. i have high possiblity of retaining after obtaining 3Fs in terms. haha. i scared how ppl think of me. i dun wana let ppl thinks im stupid or incapable.
therefore i begin to pressure myself..then of course got breakdown loh.
but i realli thank God for showering His grace and mercry to me.
He reminded me that hey where am i placing my confidence? in my results in my studies?
since i really doing my very best, always trying to maximise my time in studying the results i should raelli leave it in His hands who promised me that His plans are to prosper me.
perhaps i really retain , but i did my best. though to the world this may seems not a prosperity but hey His thought are far much greater than my thoughts. His plan definately works for a good purpose! =P

im so happy that I have this hope in me, which i really wana tell lots of ppl..when i see people stress and all that i really dunno how to encourage them , cux there's nothing to hope for..i can onli say just do ur best ... but for those who has the Hope in Him , when we do our best we can be assured that our results are safe in His hands.

one more thing to add, i always condem myself when i cant do the qn .. dermorilsing myself... i realise that im uniquely created by the very very wise and smart Creator ! so..i definately have the potentail to conqueor the qn !!! haha ... but CANNOT BE PROUD !remember..all these things does not come from me but from our Creator =D

well well..let's really learn to put our faith and trust in Him.I have tasted His goodness and faithfulness in this difficult times ... go !taste His goodness urself! =P

sitting infront of the comp.really unwilling to face what i had to study.ahhhhh.jiuming ah.
my chest has been pain since 7..and i really wonder why.now is 8.what if i studdenly get a heart attack .. ahh! that will be good! that means i will no need to face promo !
it's only tues ! and im on my verge of giving up?! how can !!! i wonder what i will be like at the end of this week...*sobx*
waha...bahhh bahh...i want a good health ! no headache. dun wana feeel feverish when i get panick... ahh..
haha..i think i continue to write like this my sept enties will be really sad ...so depressing to see the word STRESSED ..so let's read it this way ! DESSERTS !!! YUMMY :D:D:D
yar ! physics is a piece of cake ! coated with purple berries with creams ... maths is just a slice of mango mousse ! chinese ?! my ice-kachang ! hahaha... if i really eat all these i will really get terrible tummy ache ..the weathr is so cold ! haha..nice to sleep eh? but cannot !
ok let's get cracking ! dun be lazy people !!!

come do with me : BREATHE IN --- HOLD it !1 ...2....3....!! :D
BREATHE OUT !
again!do this three times ! feel cool? ok !

in these times of difficulties i will be obedient and leant to trust God for He will provide me with His strength ! ;P
"so do not fear,for I am with you;do not be dismayed,for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

yox.let's blog blog blog. to relieve stress ! haha...
im doing my tutorial on curve sketching..and im so impatient with drawing curves !! u must consider the curve tends to where and where .. ahyoi caculate until i blur!*-.-*

and i have been eating mooncakes ! i just cant imagine the amts of fats ! hahaha ...im gona lose my title of ms fit ! hahaa ! these year i got to eat a variety of mooncakes...haha..

1) my sis's future mother-in-law's 1st attempt of making mooncakes herself. and she can be really creative...bin pi + green tea + choc chip..and how it taste like ? ahem. shan't comment...but well..seems that im fuflling my sis responsiblity ..ate 6 out of 12 !!and she ? none !
2)haagen daz ice-cream mooncake..of course yummy..but is a bit too sweet...guess how much one haagen daz mooncake cost ? $20 !!! still got
3)various hotel mooncakes ...
4)yam mooncake..one of my favourties..and
5)my father's fav. hainan mooncake..and wu ren mooncake..which wat he like is what i dislike the most.. eeewww...
see! the amt of mooncakes i got to eat...= fats !! haha...ok dun get me wrong. im not on a diet.just that i have to eat healthily to prevent any more growth horizontally.haha =P

ok. let's move on to the next topic. which is what my father teased me about yesterday ->hooking a Jin Gui Xu ( a golden tortise husband!)
if he is serious about it im gona bang my head against the wall now!haha!
haha. let me delcare.why i never wana tok about the possiblities of a bgr relationship now.
1)im not mature enough to hold the responsibilites as a helper for my partner
2) no time to be committed. doing phy can take me 24 hrs. where got time for bf ?!!!
3)my age is very far away from the suitable marriage age !!
4) there are far too many more impt things that getting a bf !!!
5)...can't think liao ...but im sure these reasons are sufficient=P bleah.

what's the point of just getting a relationship after the another? sometimes is really sad to see my friends getting hurt over and over again. sad.
let me grow more mature first lah..use the time to really develop myself. =D
whuever see this dun ask me this qn ANYMORE! =P wahahahaha
let me at least be a nerd for now. go study ! =D=D=D

well. one more lesson that i learnt as this week come to an end that is : slow to anger!!
"for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires". James 1:20

this verse never speaks so strongly to me before.this shows that God is really all-knowing. He knows that i have been VERY short-tempered this week. well the week is coming to an end. since i confessed my sin. let is be the past and let's look forward to a good coming week !=P
let's move it ! i wana finish my maths ! =D
whuever feels that i spoke very harsh to .im sorry!

yox.yeah i know i just said i wun blog for a period of time. but i wana say it out! or else it will remain "undigested" in my mind. haha. i think so.
"huh.u come school for wat?"
"very stupid loh. come school for wat?"

let me explaine the background of this : i only got 1 period of PE lesson today out of 5 periods of lesson.because.JC1 lesson will ends at 11.10am today. and after that is 5-6hrs of long NE trip to OCS(officer cadate school).12 people turn up out of 26.some are going to take pink slip and zhao after their important lesson.

well. heard lots of such comments. no im not hurt or anything. just that i tot to myself. i really look that stupid meh? obviously not ! i know. well. is not a matter of stupid or not.it is a test of my faith.=)We always sing we want to live our life for Him and blab... but when decision comes , it is really tough. of course i really wish not to come school. but think again.what's my dentity?ans: daughter of the King of kings.my life belongs to who?who i wana live for?ans: The Almighty Father. therefore i have to be accountable of the time given to me. and coming to school is my responsibility as a student.

well. a test of my faith. no doubt. this decision i made.will defintely sharpens me.
so im happy person again !! =D=D=D
ok.my thought are digested.no constipation.wahahaha! =D

my blog is going to be lonely for a period of time ... wana load up pix but it will take me time .cant afford.
the past week has been terrible. I had been a bad time-keeper. Therefore this week...it cannot be !!! so ... i must be really conscious of how i spent my time !

Do pray for me that through this time of preparation of exam i will learnt to draw my strength from Him, stay focus but of course not to forget to continue to read His Word and do His work. =P

*to peeps who are having prelim : jiayou too ! =P

woah ! i have visitors who are coming to my blog! haha... =D im happy!hehee..hello ! all are welcome! haha ... my blog is not anyhow anyhow can see one loh ...cux i dun anyhow anyhow tell people one loh...haha! =D

well.. after a one week of junk food for my braekfast lunch and dinner!!! which are mostly high in sugar, salt, fats..they are oily fried and full of msg ... FINALLY ! i got to eat home food for today...finally!!! haha ... i have fish veggi and toufu .. with saba chilli .. home-made chilli..yummy! haha...the fish has no perservatives...simply washed with salt and steam...veggi .. is with little oil no salt ....toufu is fried at the outer skin onli ..the inner is still as white as before...yummy! i finally got a healthy meal ...haha ...! =D

well.it's nice to get to talk to zel and alo today over lunch and get to know them a bit more .. =P i hardly dine in with them ... =D well ...ohyar ! toking about the collection of our harp gown ...my mother was laughing like mad at me loh!!! haha..she say i simply dun have any figure in it..and im look really short in it ..!! ahh ! jiu ming ah! =P

yeah. pa is coming back home today..however some miscommunication ...two cars are went changi and wait for him ... that means one party is dissapointed and angry. and who kana? me loh.... ahyoi ..suppose to be happy that pa will be home today..what did he bring back leh? =P

>i only do 3 question of phy for the past few hours!!!
>> i don't wan to waste my holidays!!!
>>>ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!>.<

today 's air is really bad ... very bad .. serious air pollution .. i cant even stand to brethe in the air for a sec today .. everywhere is "burning" .. =(

i was tagged as ms fit today ... i have no idea where this idea come to her... which i wana delcare to her..im not fit!...hahahahahaha ... i just insulted my very ownself...haha....im just conscious of health without carrying it out...which is so bad lah....body combat on friday was no use at all i didn't even sweat...!!

let's slp ! then i will be pretty! hahaha...for tomolo performance by the youth! wohoooooo ..buai!

as i look at my blog. my english is still very bad! poor grammer poor vocab.poor sentence structure.everything is poor! ah! got to start reading my TIMES that are lying everywhere.hee!

today im so touched by a testimonial given by a mother not only about herself but a testimonial of her daughter and son too.

And also the daughter and her co-labourer shared about their mission trip in June to yun nan , once again reminded me the great commission.not that i dunno about the great commision ..but through it i see the weakness in me .there's 2 type of stuff . one for an eternal cause and one that is not. many times i placed importance and hold on to things that is so small compared to things that is for an eternal cause. for example , spending of my time. is it most of my time is not used wisely? when actually the time i can use it to do something that is more meaningful?

why sould i hold on to it since i koe i should give up and accpet the 'no' answer and placed my time on the more imporatnt stuffs that will last for an eternal cause?

and the bible did show the imporatnace of a family. the testimony showed the bond between the family memembers. they love each other with the love of our Father and i really think is a very admirable thing to actually grow together spiritually. isnt it nice to spend time and pray together with our family members?

i think the essence of a relationship ,no matter is family friends or a life-time parthner , is not just have fun together , but to help one another in the spiritual walk with Him " spur one another " encourage and speaks to one another in love .. growing up together spiritaully is a very beautiful thing... =)

did u watch superstar?! i think it is really nice . well. happy that weilian won . however i feel a pinch of sadness in me ... im wondering is it a good thing for him to step into showbix? well..is not for me to worry... hmm

anyway tried to change my blogskin ..i realise it took so much time decided to give up instead...haha..

tomolo is body combat! well time to burn my fats off! eating lots of junk recently..THAT'S BAD!!

happy teacher's day ! and happy birthday to my dear frend ah wen ! =D