hello peeps,
well, i have been feeling emo for quite a period of time.
i think i must really "grow" out of it, cannot let myself to continue to be in this state. It's defintiely not easy.
God has spoken to me times and times again to trust in Him but i have been a very disobedient kid.I threw tantrums,blame things on others ,trying to take control of the things on my hands etc. and yet I end up asking : Why are You not here with me?
But God is a faithful so how can it be possible that He has forsaken me? Very clearly it is because i am not willing to come back to Him that's why i am not able to see that He is with me.
He has not promised me a life that is a bed of roses but He has promised me to give me strength.
I have to endure hardship so that i can receive this joy at the end of the race(which is instilled by Him)
Why am i not able to trust Him then?
Is it because i feel that i can provide myself better than what God is able to provide?
fear of not be able to get what my deceitful heart desires?
When I say i want to follow Him then this life im living is no longer mine but His. I need to surrender to Him, He has the best plans for me.
What will happen if i do not give God the things on my hands?
I need to come back to God.

for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."

Since you call on a Father who judges each man's work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear.

For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 1Peter 1:16 - 19

Come on, get up girl and start working, honouring Him in all things that you do! =)
Have faith!I am not redeemed by things that are perishable but im redeemed by precious blood of Christ!