It is PROM NIGHT today!

im not very excited actually because not all of my friends are going.
haha, but after doing so many thing for this day, i can now feel the excitment! teeheee....

list of things that i have done and i have to do

1) bought my little black dress at Robinson
2) trim eyebrown at Brauhouse
3) found and bought matching accessoriess at Chomel
4) found matching clutch and heels
5) done with mannicure and peddicure at Goodearth

6) having hairdo at Zoom today
7) learning to do make up myself with the girls today!

ahahaha..sound exciting ya? ahaha..yup im happy! but the manni that i did yesterday is not perfect anymore! i got some chip off...how sad lah.

ooo..another happy things is yesterday i went to watch an Wang Li Hong 's outdoor concert! haha, we got free tickets from her aunt's friend's daughter (what along connection right). And he was really humourous and cute, there is no wonder why my friend likes him so much. I tried to use my hp to take pix of him , unfortunately!, despite that im rather close to him , what i captured was just a figure of "white ghost" because of the strong lightings. well but nevertheless i still enjoyed myselfi. oh i think wang li hong got see me face to face leh! ahahahaha...silly me..

and i had a good sleep yesterday night (finally) i was having a few sleepless night due to STRESS! yesterday i was suppose to lead my very first lesson during youth group and because of this lesson i have prepared really hard and worry lots that is why i cant sleep and eat well. Haha , although i told myself not to worry too much cux God is there for me , but i still worried. Oh well, got some feedback and they it was rather okay, but i don't really feel it's ok. Hm, but truly, i wana thank God that i wasn't too nervous that i can't utter and also thank God that some people have gained some things through this lesson =)
oh perhaps the aprt that i can't eat well have done me good,perhaps i will look slimmer today..haha, silly me again. please DO NOT try to starve yourself so that you can look slimmer. =P

oh! it is12pm now! im gona meet my dear dear xin ying in 1hr and 40mins time..now gona pack my room a bit, pack some cosmetics stuff, prepare my bag, have a good thourgh bath!
i think im gona be late...ohno....=P

I feel so happy to have friends who speak the Truth to me.

thankie Euniceeee! =D

A LEVEL IS OVER !!!!!!!!!!!

haha...but i don't really feel exceptionally happy or relieved.

whY?maybe it was because the physics mcq today was quite bad. but actually i know the real reasons behind it. I know what's the challenges ahead for me which left me feeling rather scared.

well, that's a side note.

let me tell you how my friends and i celebrated. cathy,mic,pek,zihui and i went to sing K BOX ! and watched a very nice movie - STARDUST. We sang our hearts and lungs out(is this the way to phrase it?) , with pek trying to imitate and say funny dialouges...it's really funny =P

Stardust is a nice movie! it has suspense, surprise,humour and action pact elements. It's nice!

then went to eat dinner with pek,take MRT home with her..

haha..such a normal outing..but it's considered our last outing! so i feel abit sad..because i will miss those times that we mug together...crap together...get high together.. feel like slapping and boxing each toerh(not literally), hooking their arms and walk home together....i will miss them!!!

ok i shall stop here,im getting tired, wana turn in now..gdnight! =)

may i learn how to share people's emtion bagagges but at the same time lay all of it in the hands of the Almighty.

im feeling random now so im gona blog randomly...

mummy is cleaning our house windows now..it's so scary to see her standing on the chair,wiping the windows..as you know i live on the 20th storey! what if she suddenly..such thoughts always freak me out...but when i asked mummy "aren't you scared?" she gave me a reply that shows that she is really not afraid at all...and i can't help but feeling wow, hoping that i can being more brave like my mum..not afraid of heights...(ok this sounds really trivial....)

ok exam news: 2 more papers left before "freedom" arrives...haha..i like how lily put it across...soon 'you will smell the freedom coming'. haha..the upcoming papers are MCQ papers! haha..it's a much more relax paper...BUT! still im still mugging for it..i didn't slack! haha....i seriously need to score like 39/40 ... cux the previous papers that i have done...are really weird....the questions are weird....=S ok, i shall not be bothered how i will score..and truly learn how to lay it in God's hands...

well, though it is exam period now...but there are lots of different thoughts lingering in my mind..ok one part of it is the after exams plans...but another part of it..is thoughts about..hm, human behaviours?
sometimes im really angry about myself for not being able to articultae my thoughts clear enough....or form logical links between the thoughts that i have in mind.... but well, what i can say is...whenever i see someone in great anger or harbouring great hatred towards someone or hear accounts from my friends on what's happening in their family...i just feel so sad...and perhaps...scared. sigh, i think the scariest thing on earth is really human being himself....
hopefully as i continue to think about what's on my mind..i will have a bibical perceptive and a heart that is not bitter...

ok...im not gona end this post with an emo note. it's 2pm now...it's time for lunch! yeah! do you know why i eat my lunch so late? because i want to eat that stall's porridge and yam cake and zhu chang fen...and that stall only starts serving at 2pm...yeah.ok! time to eat and study...

gracy is coming back to SG! eunice is ending her exam soon too!im gona have great fun this holiday! =D

ok..im dying to blog but i don't know where my computer takes super long to load blogger....=S

im so SIANZ now..seriously...i feel so unmotivated to study! despite that i have pasted my " DREAM LIST" (list of things that i want to do after my As!) on my cardboard ..i still feel so unmotivated........ahhhh...how! i have not much time left before my next paper!

Hm, perhaps ...it has been too long since i last excercised...moreover there's so many things that i can snack at home...haha...that's why im feeling so piggy and lazy at home.....so i don't feel like studying!

Haha...ok lah, stop whining girl...i must get back studying despite that i don't feel like it! >.<

yeah..ok im gona cook my own dinner now and tidy up my house and wait for daddy to come back home from China!

Yox ~ now is like around 17days after prelims? and around less than 45 days to A levels?
it is really scary when you start couting the number of days you have left with...
ok, my prelim was not very well done, my overall grade is pronounces like this: Eesss.
doesn't it sounds like eeks?

ok, i do feel eeks but thanks for by dear friends encouragements which reminded me to trust in Him.
I feel eeks because my dream of 3As is like quite impossible? not only do i feel eeks, but i also feel worried. But why worry? As we often say exams is not our everything!
But of course, this worried feelings can do you good too. It is suppose to give you some pressure so that you can be pushed. It is not supposed to make you feel lousey and you drop all the way to the bottom of the pit.

When i pray abouy my studies, i always asked God what should be attitude when i study? It is always easy to say: study for God's glory. However, it is always so hard to actualise it.
Well, not to worry.I guess as i continue to grow older(both physically,mentally and spiritually) i will have better glimpse of what does it mean to study for His glory.

For now, this is how i am going to remind myself. ( this final conclusion is formed through various encouragements that i got from my friends: jojo,tricia,lily,kay,alo etc.=D)

when i attempt questions, attempt it with my best efforts.i cannot think that i got second chance to redo it.just do whatever i can, and let God to the rest.(ok this last part sounds cliche but i must acknowledge that God is in control.=) REMEMBER : GOD PROVIDES.

Some key verses(it is always good to use bible verses, as God's promises lasts forever=D) to remind myself :

1 Corinthians 3:6
6I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow.

Romans 5:3-5
3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Romans 8:28
28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.


thank God for the joy He has given me. =)

today i sang a familiar song in church which talks about my response to God's love.

the chorus of the song goes like this (of course, the song is in chinese):

shen shen ai ni, ye su. (i love you dearly,Jesus.)

shen shen ai ni, ye su.

wo ai ni, chao hu shen ming zhong yi qie ( i love you more than anything else)

In the past one week, i had interesting conversations with my friends. We were talking about the environment we gona be in after we graduate. i heard sayings like : everybody is just gona care about their own benefits, care about how much money can they earn, your boss only looks at results ... so whatever it is , the process does not matter, it is the result .Stop being idealistic, no one will see your integrity and thus reward you.....

i was struck by this familiar song because i realise that as i grow older it will be increasingly difficult to love God.how often i failed in loving Him.sigh. but because of what Jesus has done for me, i will still be accepted by Him!

today's worship end off with a reminder to us that it is God who holds our tomorrow. We often worry because we did not fully surrender the authority of our life to Him.

His plans are powerful and organised. =P

it's hard to blog lately cause of my computer has super low moemory so can't really load the site. I guess i only can blog when other's computer is available. =)

7 days to prelim!!!!

"When I am afraid, I will trust in You"

Hey say Hi to my super cute niece!!

hello!
today i went to eat mahattan fish market again! i must say the food is really not bad and the price is reasonable. =)
i have zhen ling!qing yu!wan ling!tricia!kah yoke!yuan shan!alodie! and kay! to celebrate my brithday and zhi lei birthday in advance!
and the tiny little strawberry cake which i really thought it was our bithday cake but of course is not! we had mango swiss cake! haha...zhi lei was just so funny the whole night lah... =D

i think i had really neglacted my friends. to be frank , im not close to everyone in this group of friends. however, for them to always be there for me to encourage me and consistently inviting me different celebrations,gatherings etc. is really a very sweet gesture. it makes me feel that im being cared for. so yar, i truly appreacaited it lots. =D=D=D

like what yuan shan say, despite my busyness,sometimes i do need to drop some short sms or give a short call to show my friends that i care for them.

it is interesting and amazing to see how our friendships have forged so far.
i shall post photos soon on this group of lovely friends! =D love you guys!

P.S : sorry for the extremely poor response that i gave when i receive the handphone pouch.im just shocked by the the girly looking lah, haha, i like all the things u all gave! thankie lots lots lots!

showing faithfulness in whatever things i do... =)

I had my 2.4km yesterday ! and i passed it !!! wahahahaha ~ my timing was 15 minutes plus,best ever record in JC. haha ~ i think 'chio-ing' in the first round helps.My timing for the first round was around 1:40 , it's very tedious to run at such speed. By half way through 2nd round, im starting to pant (i usually start panting when im at my 4th round).So i keep telling myself to breathe deep and slowly,and of course i was asking God for His strength to keep me through. =D

i really have no idea how did my timing improved(my timing is usally between 16 to 17min).The whole process of running was really amazing. One thing is really by God's grace.

I think it reflects how the way i should prepare for my A. Like u know it's always the inital stage that's really tough ,but if im used to that kind of momentum that requires "big strides" of moving forward then at the end it will be real satisfying.

ok, i think what i mentioned above is not making sense to you cause im like talking to myself. =P

plenty of tests ahead ! ok just keep going.

He is my first thing first.
We are suppose to reflect His character in every way in our life,
thus i must be faithful to the things i do because He is faithful.

hello peeps,
well, i have been feeling emo for quite a period of time.
i think i must really "grow" out of it, cannot let myself to continue to be in this state. It's defintiely not easy.
God has spoken to me times and times again to trust in Him but i have been a very disobedient kid.I threw tantrums,blame things on others ,trying to take control of the things on my hands etc. and yet I end up asking : Why are You not here with me?
But God is a faithful so how can it be possible that He has forsaken me? Very clearly it is because i am not willing to come back to Him that's why i am not able to see that He is with me.
He has not promised me a life that is a bed of roses but He has promised me to give me strength.
I have to endure hardship so that i can receive this joy at the end of the race(which is instilled by Him)
Why am i not able to trust Him then?
Is it because i feel that i can provide myself better than what God is able to provide?
fear of not be able to get what my deceitful heart desires?
When I say i want to follow Him then this life im living is no longer mine but His. I need to surrender to Him, He has the best plans for me.
What will happen if i do not give God the things on my hands?
I need to come back to God.

for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."

Since you call on a Father who judges each man's work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear.

For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 1Peter 1:16 - 19

Come on, get up girl and start working, honouring Him in all things that you do! =)
Have faith!I am not redeemed by things that are perishable but im redeemed by precious blood of Christ!

hello! it is friday! next week is term exams.
haha no sigh no sigh, i think i enjoyed and yet also dislike the process of preparing for exams.

you know what, i dreamt about collecting A level result yesterday night and my result was B B B E , haha..my reaction in the dream was devastating....but when i woke up i feel that it was really a nightmare. haha , it left me thinking: is it really bad if i get this result? am i looking at academic result in a correct/bibical perspective?

but i must say this whole preparation pushes me to be a more disciplined person which is good! im still far from it sia.

ok~ im going back to study ! =)

thank God for always been there to remind me to draw back to Him.
thank God for providing me great teachers and friends ! =D

there is not greater joy than serving the Lord wholeheartly. im trying to learn!

hello!
i really have been wanting to blog again espcially i wanted to put up some resolution for 2007 .
Haha , however i know that if i were to keep blogging again, it will mean that there's a high tendancy i will be stuck to the computer for long.

so no! to blog. haha , so i will pen down my reflections instead and blog once in a while.haha.

it's only the beginning of the year yet im already pressing for time which is very good i suppose.
school timetable ends 4.30 everyday(except thurs) and my breaks are filled with extra lessons/remedials . Plus the commitments i have ..wow really no time.

Well, but don't worry for me, i really thank God to let me know very clearly that this is something that i chose, I must follow it through. Although very intense, but im enjoying the process. It's really very importat to learn to LOVE and ENJOY the process.

so i believe this is really gona be a year that i will grow in faith and also experience God's grace.

woah, in this year 2007, im gona have an exciting walk with God. =D