IM A LOUSEY MONEY KEEPER!
urgh. yet im being assigned as tresurer in class ( it was said to be temporary, hm, but it seems im permanent now liao lah! )
and also a mini tresurer in my cell.
and im really very untrustable.
now im stuck with all the accounting for both groups.
because one of the factor is i use the money.that time during new year i used the money to pay for my stuffs first then ask the money from parents then pay back. but now my accounts are all in amess. and i have to scarifice my time to settle it. i wanted to complete my hw one...sobx.
sorry.....i koe im a bad bad person. have been trying to learn this lesson for quite some years.
urgh. i got my punishment liao that is to use my hongbao money to fill the hole up.

Lord, please help me to me be a good money keeper. =S

crescent sch prog just ended. and thank God, get to build rapport with the gals. but though i suppose to facilitate in the prog. i feel myself learning too!

good pratices of a leader
(Leadership appears to be the art of getting others TO WANT to do something you are convinced should be done. - Vance Packard)

1) inspiring a shared vision
2) challenging the process
3) enabling others
4) encourage the heart
5) model the way

some key pts that impact and remind me the most is to challenge the process. my experience of retaining really speaks lots. that is to be pro-active in my studies. must always ASK! CALRIFY DOUBTS! why am i scared how ppl will think of me? im responsible for my accademic performance.
secondly will be enabling others and encourage the heart. may i continue to learn to be concern for others from the bottom of my heart and always seek to let them give out their full potential in them.

mrs teo also shared something. there's always bound to have fustrations and dissapoinments, each of us have two choice : to react to it or respond to it?
well i guess u have the ans. =)

leaders often feel lonely.who is there to understand what he or she sees and what to achieve for the benefits of others? being a leader, you must be confident in yourself. but human is just a tiny little thing , we are not even sure of our furture and the outcome , so what and where is the confidence based on? i think that boils down to asking who are we?

if i lost my identity of being a child of God, i seriously lost everything. cause what's there in me that i can be proud abt?

to find the meaning in life, first have to get ur relationship with God right again.

woah i wrote so long today. aha. in a refelction mood mah. aha!
aha. eek. got this disgusting worm stick on my chem w/s! and its juice is in green! YUCK!
this remind me of ah lei. haha...the queen of insects.

gdnite! =P

i ate subway on monday tuesday and weds!
mon : something with honey oat
tues: ham with something
weds: roast beef with italian hearty!
i love subway! cux it is healthy and it wun make u feel guilty.aha!

well. i think this year God has prepared lots of lessons ahead for me to learn. It is good right? yar, obviously it will be good. but still i feel very fearful and intimidated.
today nearly get drowned in the pool during swim PE , the experience of struggling for survival makes me feel frighten and scared. This is dunno my no. wat time almost drowned. cux of my fear of deep pool that make me so panic.

actually there's lots more. But well, sure discover one by one in detials.

eeeee, the feeling of wanting to join band came back again.
another round of struggle. eeeee. >.<

im so sad!
today i wanted to chop chop go buy this PONY shoe that i saw which is like half price on monday! original price was 59 so its will be $29 after discount.HOWEVER! to my horror! as i chop chop down to orchard after sch todae..IT IS SOLD OUT! i really need a pair of shoes besides my sports shoe because i only have one pair of heels now and my sports shoe not counting my one pair of slipper. this pair of shoes is really unqiue , the kind of green it has is like hmm...that kind of jade green? baby coloured...yar is like converse shoe that kind of style but with a lot of patchy pattern. Hahaha i was sulking lah...the shop person which is a guy look rather cute...ahem ahem..he dunno how to help me but to keep on apologise.ahahaha..plus plus chun chun was there for me! haha...then we walk to find some"hope" of getting nice and cheap shoe..i saw! its 10 dollar!!!!! BUT THEN dun have my size! SOBX. so bad. in the end i bought this $8 slipper hopefully it wun lok sloppy if i wore it to church.

and i ate lots of CHOCOLATE todae. i didn have a proper meal.(except dinner) hmm, not realli on purpose.
early in the morning sat at the void deck with my class mates , list of food i ate in that free periods : hello kitty biscuit coated with choc, few bits of my friend yan's choc muffins, my own bread from home coated with nutella. yar!
following free period: choclate flavoured polky(is this the right spelling)
ok the only thing that is not choc i ate todae are the drinks: sugarcane..oo i ate kiwi too! glad there's no choc.
went orchard and grab this combo thing..dunno called what.shared with chun. but it is significantly with a thick layer on chocolate on it. and a cup of orange juice that come with it.

home food is the nicest. seriously.aha.=)
tata for now. im gona do my hw.lee wan xian is guai one. =p

who dont' like to be feel loved and doted?
with just one person focusing the attention on you
sharing the sweetest memories with you alone?

sweet words and promises, i hope its not a dark pit that is going deeper and deeper.
because once fall in, i don't know how long it will take one to climb up again.
promises of an eternity, of forever...are you sure u can fulfil it?
are you aware how fragile it is?

im worried for you.
i really don't want you to feel the hurts that i experienced before.
im scared it breaks you into so many pieces that you may not stand up again.
of course, i will never want to wish this day ever happen to you.



are we sure that we are up to it? how stubborn can we be, we know its dangerous, yet often we give ourselves excuses and continue to follow what our hearts desire. (do you know that our hearts are actually decitful?) Perhaps, sometimes we even lied to ourselves that"i will be the exception."
but if i never experinced the hurts before, i will never learnt what love really is[this is only possible if i truly come to know Him] and perhaps continue to love in a wordly manner. But not everyone can learnt it after one lesson , some may become a bitter person or some continue to numb themselves....
you all are friends that i care and loved , i hope you all will be alright. really.

because my Saviour is in control. i can have my peace in Him.=)

im tired!im tired!im tired!
legs are aching terrbibly.....
well yup.FUN-O-RAMA 18 is over liao!..
hmm...had fun time selling..though the amt of drinks we mange to sell are disappointing..sigh...
but had fun with my classmates..little joy, surprises laughters..are enough to sustain the smile on my face!=D=D
haha..
- blowing bubbles are fun!
- having balloons on hands are fun!
- buy things for ppl are fun!
(bought a big sunflower for shuzkz [we looked quite les today,haha,but well we are straight loh.its just that we too long nv see each other,hope she is really alright])
- got ramly burger! enci!thank you!!
- seeing familiar faces popping out infront of ur stalls are sweet and fun!
(miss them lots..memories will start to pour back again)
- Emerald green ..sounds nice? haha..but its not appealing..customers felt cheated.but is nice to drink loh.
- bought ac files
- cracking my head of how to use my coupons wisely but a bit regreat of not saving 2 dollar to buy ballons.haha.

well will try to pose the photos! it rained today u koe?

well how abt my chinese competition? well it is embarassing! disspoment! i really really wana do ac proud..wana show others like who say ac all is ang mo...got exception k..ac is not that bad..
but i forgot my speech! it sounded well in the beginning...then slowly slowly..i forget and forget and forget.......................................sobx! *embarassed*

well. thank God for today. today i didn flare up at the person that im irritated with. that's very gd! its was rather smooth .im not boiled today.haha.

ITS SO HARD TO LOVE !!!
sigh. im so irritated by some ppl. i seriously detest some ppl that i met...and wonder why i ever will meet such ppl....
sigh. im seriously trying very hard to be gentle and to accomodate and to be caring. but i failed again and again.

im also a person that is also vey detestable in God's sight if it wasn't Jesus's blood that cleanses me.
but...sorry...ok i will really try....but sometimes by just hearing the person's voice alrady make me boil very high...maybe shot up to 1000 degree C...

FUN O RAMA is this coming sat! hehee...my churchmates are coming down so happy!!haha..but the experiments trip down to chun hse...are quite exciting but tiring too...and im having a competition on the very day of fun o rama too! how fun!hahaha...well..it's been long since i participat in the chi oraltorical(dunno how to spell) competiti0on...going to 3 years i think...but this is something i wana try and brush myself...participate in competitions is good. =)

its very irritating that alot of ppl keep asking u to buy our funfair tix rite? i koe..well...its very irritating for me to sell too..cux i have to sort of like beg and force..hahaha...
well. amazingly..someone reminded me abt God's leading in this selling too...haha...though is rather small..but i do agree...God take care of me in every single part of my life.
is like time is running out....peeps that i want them to come from church supposdly to have some cell discussion in the afternoon....but then amaazingly it has to change to the morning due to some reasons...then...my one or two..come and help me buy pull their friends to buy from me...small effort..but GREATLY APPRECIATED!! =D=D=D

IM SO HAPPY AND HIGH NOW! IM GONA SING LALALALALALALA! =D
how can i ever stop praising You?

today is the day where all graduates of 2005 will be super duper nervous--> the arrival of the results.
the weird thing is, im nervous too! i guess it is because many ppl that i care for are receiving back their results too.hee.=P
i cracked my head of thinking what to say to them to make them less nervous or how should i say to let them feel encouraged or at least have the hope for the future. but i know this is impossible. cux neither me nor anyone are sure of the future. i bet even fortune tellers who claims that they can predict the future does not knows what is ur future like in every single details. but even they do know do u really want to ask them?
the future indeed is full of uncertainties. but it depends u are in whose hands. no one can assure u abt ur future. whenever phrases like"u can do it","u will do well" it really makes me wonder,really? 100% sure?
but with God , i can safely say : i know whatever result it is , it will not be bad cause He has the plans for me.He has planned my future in full details in a way it will prosper me and not harm me.so whatever outcomes or situations in my life..i know i will be safe. as He is the hope of my future.=) and this will keep me joyful til the day i met Him face to face.

awww..my stomach is feeling awful....is so pain until i have to cuddle myself up...
must be the junks i ate over the new year...aww.....=S help....