im sick again! sickness: headache (processing to fever), sorethroat,cough.let me start counting one year i must sick how many times. i know last year in one year i sick more than 5 times. let's see what's the record for this year. =P
now i cant do anything...is like no energy...im gona slp after typing this...urgh. feel so useless like that.
ok i think the honeymoon weeks is officially ended. cux this coming week will be the...end sch at 430 and guess what there's additional period called the zero period so sch ends at 510pm!!! the zero period is for the preparation for fun-o rama. oh yar! please buy tickets from me. haha.=P

i see me j2 friends like everyday so gloomy like that leh...also dunno how to cheer them up.sigh. j2 life really very cham leh...i know.

ahh..my head aches. cant write any further. shall just end here. ttfn!

the breeze is back...oolalala..i love it! haha...

today i nearly get beaten up lah...i mean really. cause right..anway i was at je walking towards the bus interchange..u know the shelter? yar...there is this grp of malay guys 3 of them i think from ITE...then at the traffic there i dunno why im staring at them .i was actually stoning lah..so no expression look fierce...ok nvm...then walk and walk..then u know got this fair on ur left with the television and all..then they played the rock song..then they someone sang it out loud...i turned back..with a look that look angry...haha..i didn frown but i was stoning so when i turn back..to my horror i saw the three guys staring back at me..ok i didn showed my horror so it looked as if i diao them...then they start saying to me ..."why u turn back" " you never see people sing before ah"..i just keep on walking pretending i nv hear...then they say a bit more ...then i hurry walk off..thx God they never follow me ..or else i will die.haha. now i know how ppl get beaten up when they "diao" ppl.

awww...dad..keep on nagging abt me that im idleing around..keep on saying how to get thru j1 this year...ahyoi!!!
ok.matter of fact..i did all the pre lecture preparation...did as many tutorial qn as i can...but last year i already dunno the first few topics well wat..so i cant finish the tutorial...cux i dun understand so waiting for the lectuer to teach me.

i got a serious problem here : now when i see phy i will automatically wana switch off...how !!! i still choose it as core subject..i like the subject...but i fear the subject...
i got the solution! i need someone to do phy hw with me....really ..it works..cux when i switch off means i wana run away means i wana sleep....who wana do phy with me!
sigh . my dear juniors all choose bio chem...still cant find the rare ones who took phy maths...i wonder who is in the same class as me! im so scared! yet excited.
dear xiang helped me checked out liao...im in 1SA5.sounds really cool. i hope i can fit it ya.tomolo is our first contact time i wonder...

grace went back australia....though this is her 3rd time coming back to sg and going back..still got that feeling of sadness...the u know..hope u are here..not there...kind of feeling...gona see her onli june..by then she will complete her biggest exam..and preparing to go Uni. so fast rite...everything is just in a year.

yesterday the met up with grace and jo. woah..its been long since we last hang out...just sit at bk and tok...i think fairfield ppl like to sit down somewhere and just start stoning or toking or something...haha...last time we always hang out in sch ... or dover..or clementi...haha..jo say she wants to have four kids!!so rare rite?she want to get married either 25 or 26!haha...then she want her first baby after getting married for a year! must note this down...haha...then by then i can call her auntie jo.haha...

saw someone's nick something like this...memories is just like on going film without sound...i think is quite true to a large extend..the fun i have with my juniors now..make the fairfield warm warm feeling back to me again..but ...is soon as we part into different classes ... is just gona integrated into my memory bank...something that cannot withdraw like switzerland bank...well...tell me what can last till the eternity?
FOG (fairfield OG!)- once a fairsian always a fairsian. =)

the weather is so nice and cooling! though is a bit too cold...but i like this kind of weather! hee..i just enjoyed a cup of hot milo. the feeling is so shiok! hee...it was raining "BIG" cats and "BIG" DOGS just now, everywhere is like flooded, its so nice to get a free cab ride home...hehee...=P i got short cool hair now...and lots of people say is nice! haha..all thankx to my ah ling for introducing such a nice saloon! haha........lalala...im going to me lala land...to meet my pinky tree.....ok..im not making any sense here and there's no meaning to it so no need to try to figure.haha!

note: guard ur heart and use the vibrant that a youth has to serve the Lord faithfully. =)
= the joy of my Lord is my strength =

God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God is wonderful cousellor.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God is my joy.God is my everything!God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God is wonderful cousellor.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God is my joy.God is my everything!God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God is wonderful cousellor.God loves christa.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God is my joy.God is my everything!God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God is wonderful cousellor.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God gives me peace.God loves wan xian. God is my joy.God is my everything!God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God loves me me me!God is wonderful cousellor.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God is my joy.God is my everything!God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God is wonderful cousellor.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God is my joy.God is my everything!God is good.God is faithful.God is gracious. God is love.God is wonderful cousellor.God is Amighty.God is my strength.God is my joy.
God is my everything,everything,everything!=D

tomorrow is school reopen. i think those graduates from secondary schools..are rather excited. but frankly speaking im not. i seriously dunno how is gona be like when i step back in sch. as i reflected back 2005...what i see is really darkness...the feeling yucks big times...and thus i really really dun want to go back and suffer again. sigh sigh...i want to run away...haha..but yar i know i cant run away. i know i know.

see...times can be really tough and difficult...seriously without God i dunno how to tide thru with a smile. "with Christ in the vessel i can smile at the storm!" haha. He provides me with friends!you know u heard of ac culture right...very negative right..but the friends i met are really great and nice...not a "product" of ac culture...haha..

God's plans are the best for me and His thought are far greater than my thoughts. as i look ahead the year 2006...i saw alot of heaps....u koe..like when u run ur mac ritchie..haha..so many steep slopes...but when u come down is so shuang...so yar..climbing hard up ....but..haha..the end result will be great! haha...my chacter will be moulded. becoming more woman. ahahahahahaa.

*with tears* no matter how tough this year gona be. God will be enthroned in my heart. and He will be with me to tide thru my storms , waves, thurders...watever that is nasty.yeah! =P

haha... how did u countdown yesterday?
i also hope myself to be somewhere whereby i can see big big fireworks *pui*pui* infront of me...haha.... but i koe it's quite impossible so i hope for another thing hope that i can get the u koe the stick kind of fireworks...hahaha...so i tried to persuade my churchmates to go with me and try out 7-11...ok i know.i xin fu kou fu that 7-11 DUN SELL such things. ahaha.

well. but im very happy to be with all my sisters and brothers in christ yseterday. yesterday my church have this 'shi ge zhan mei hui' whereby u can see people ranging from the oldest to the youngest come to present items to praise God..i dunno how to describe how touching it was...but it was really a historical moment. u really miss it if u are not there to see. =) i believe that God will revive JCC too... and today the new pastor officially step up. =P

ok. so this is how we countdown. i think we are rebellios, or rather i am .haha cux i die die also dun want to go home before 12....since it's already near 11 might as well wait rite? k cant find fireworks...so how to celebrate countdown? we discussed intesively....haha...but well seems that nothing exciting come out. by the time we tal finish its already ard 1130pm...how how? ok..stoning starts to creep in...we tired to da fa shi jian by taking photos...in the end...just sit down there....and continue stoning....haha..stone and stone...many left onli left me,EC,EW,SE,thomas,sem and another guy...sorry i dunno his name.=S so ok... 1150pm..what to do...someone suggested the rooftop.wat do u called rooftop in chi? is "yang tai" or "tian tai"....guess wat i say "yang tai" ..so embarassing lah...haha...btw the way up to the rooftop i locked..so we climbed in...haha...as usual im clumsy as ever...need the most help to get in and out...hahahaha...so we stood there..for 1 or 2 min? then we hear the sound of counting down from the nearby CC..then we followed them and count..10...9...8..7..6..5..4..3..2...1 ! happy new year!we shook one another's hands..haha...that's it..climbed out and go home liao.hahaha..sound so boring rite?haha..well i enjoy it though..haha..it's lame..but it's nice cux im with my sis and brothers in christ!hahaha...

there's another part to the story.,.poor khai and her bro...left church way before us...but the irritating 98 took to so long to come...they end up counting down at the bustop...haha..

ok.i know this is a boring entry. but it's something i want to remember.haha. so.yarloh.it'smyblog wat.hahaha...ok im going to look thru my new year resolution again...hehee..i will consider to post it up..=)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

friendster can be quite addictive i think...i kept looking at people photos and is going to be an hour...how scary...i think...many things u know it just become memories and u cant turn it back and cant have it back liao...quite sad hor...yarloh...i really miss secondary school days very badly...but let's stop dreaming to be back into secondary school days...aww..the feeling is awful...=S

have you watched narnia?
must go and watch ok...it's very nice and very touching.
woah.did i tell you?
im most touched at the scene of the battle.
wana know why?
it reminded me about the fact that all christians are constantly in this spirtual warfare.
yar, battling gainst the evil Satan for the good cause of doing God's work and living up a life pleaseing to Him.
however many a times we fail..we give in ..(sometimes we didn't even know) letting Satan have a foothold...
how's the situation in your life? are you still fighting hard? still standing as firm as before?or you wanted to retreat? just want to be a christian that dun fight.(that's weird!)
i think most importantly we have to examine the willingness of our heart.
are you willing? to die in this battle? or are you ready? to fight in this battle.
many people died for the good cause. died cause they want to share God's good news.
how abt me? i was guilty cux i know i still didn give all i have and go all the way just to share the good news. many a times, i will lost the friendships with my friends. and cux my own spiritual battle in my daily life. it's so hard to react in all situation in a Christ-like manner and attitude.
"For Narnia, for Aslan"
let's continue to encourage one another to not to give up in running the race. amazingly this was the verse I came across during QT yesterday,
"therefore,since we are surroundeded by a great cloud of witnesses,let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely,and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,looking to Jesus the founder and perfecter of our faith..." Hebrews 12:1-2

let God's love to us be our motivation in running this race.=D

hello peeps~ !it's christmas!!!! christmas!!!! =D

i wana wish you a merry christmas,
i wana wish you a merry christmas!
i wana wish you a merry christmas
from the bottom of my heart ah!!! hee ~come sing with me!hee!

but hor u koe hor...christmas wihtout jesus has no meaning le...so let us also put aside a time for God to thank Him for loving us so much to send His son on earth to die for us.He don't need to u koe u koe?

if you have the time to spend crazy times with your friends must cherish, cux someone peep have to spend time in their lab! sigh sigh.

hee, well thankies for all our lovely cards and presents!!! hee...i love chocolate i love choclate!

hey EC i love your magnet...IT'S OK TO BE SLOW BUT JUST DUN STOP.
hee~ trying to suan me at the same time it encouraged me =P

what you want for christmas? =)
reminder: sch is one week away.................................................

tired. i think for the next many entries im just gona keep on repeating this.

sigh. i dun like the feeling of hmm....not being able to achieve the ideal case. it embeds the feeling of rejection.
sounds like a perfectionist ya? im quite a perfectionist actually...but over the years... it's not that much now....it's that good or bad?

brain: im tired.
mind: im tired too.
heart: im tired three.

how i wish someone can just carry moi..

hm, realise my posts are always speech. lets have some pix here! here it goes..

grace came back to SG for christmas!!! yeah i got grace for christmas!our first outing was to go and watch eu and jo performance at esplanade(BandFestival06)...some lame pix that we took:



we started off rather normal......however.....as we continue to walk on....

our funny faces start to appear.... the very first one...(trying to boo boo the esplanade?)

i think it was me having a problem..haha..cant even be normal with the subsequent photos..

we tried another funny act: indian dance ( isn't it cool to dance infront of fullerton?)

this was a huh pose... i think we are trying to act being flatten by a car...???


i tell u! it's not on me and grace are weird. eu is even worst loh u see:


so do u know what are they trying to find?i dunno u know..

at least we ended: normal. big smile! haha...cant help not to smile with them ard.=P

i shall post more next time.=P i bought my dress today ...yawnx.tiring walked the whole day . gdnite peeps =)

something to add on: kay wanted to give me her jean yip vochuer so that i can have the free trail of two slimming session. that's very thoughful of her hor? hee..but too bad im under 18. ahahahaa...come to think of it it's very funny. please loh...i seriously cant imagine myself doing those session...the machinese and the fats.weird.aha.=p

i felt so loved when i received a genuine present. yup. it definately lifted my spirit up!hee.=D
hm. i really wana buy something useful for those people that i love and care...but i have no finincial! haha...seriously...i can only make things..but hor...im so busy now that its hard for me to have time to make. i really really hope i can finish all my xmas card by thurs..so that i can send it on time! brrr.....haha..actually i got lots to share and say .. but too tired. gotta do lots of work.

its a headache to shift and buy new furnitures. ah!=P
thx God for keeping me safe and giving my strength to pull through the day.
Thank you peeps for keeping me in your prayers. =)

hello!=) you know what? i just chatted to someone whom i dun really know and also dun really know how she look..for one hour plus!! im really happy and amazed how God has enabled the conversation to be smooth....it is an unexpected conversation which i thank God for it. =) may God continue to enable me to know each youth that i come across genuinely and make me an instrument to share His good news and love with them. =D

if one were to ask me how am i recently? i seriously dunno how to answer. i can only conclude that im really tired in all ways. there's so many things i wana do. but i fail to do it. my memory fails . my strength fails. my will fails. i must declare that im limited, it is impossible for me to accomplish things by myself.

to my heavenly Father,
please continue to keep me faithful to the end and continue to be my source of joy and strength.
I know that im limited i need You to accomplish the things with me.
Your daughter

tomolo is a time for pot luck ! yippee! my last and first one pot luck was in sec 2.haha.meat balls.hee.tomolo gona wake up early to make crab mayo omellete! haaha...hope it works..haha..ah!left 5 hrs of slp....goodnite!=)

guess what did i do today?! come guess!
ans: I CLIMBED 13 FLIGHTS OF STAIRS.
conclusion: im mad for wanting to do some excercise.=P
results: spinning head.legs and hands turn into jelly.

by the way i lived on the 20th storey. so i took a lift down and up again. I really felt my whole head spinning, and my legs and hands have no strength at all...i shouldn't have risk, haha..moral of the story , dun ever risk ur live for beauty sake. wahahahaa.=P

The Unwanted Gift

It was laying on the table
Still and unpackaged.
The maker spent hours on it;
Doing it with all his/her heart and efforts,
Trying his/her very best to make it presentable.
He/she hopes that the receiver will be filled with sweetness and joy
Upon receiving this prepared gift.

But now despite the gift was done
And despite the maker was pleased with it,
It was not presented.
He/she tried,
But the response was hostile.
What do you suggest the maker to do?
Continue to try to give?
Or continue to leave it laying on the table, collecting dust?




Because of love, you will still give.

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i was very happy that day because we had a family outing! do u know that is really rare for my family to go on a outing?(in fact i don't remember any outing like this) it was my mum's birthday. =) my dad and sis took leave and we went outing at orchard. orchard - werid place for dad. but still i see him grin from ear to ear.
the picture: just me my sis my dad and mum ...went shopping. walk along at orchard road.we just go anywhere that mum wants to go.
sis: u want to buy ur shoes right?
we pulled her, and we stepped into our first destination : charles and keith.sis bought a pair of new shoes for her.
me: so where u want to go for ur sec stop?
mum: i want to eat ice-cream
sis: ok! let's go to gleto(ok i dunno how to spell)
we all had ice-cream..sat at the fountain at taka and apprecating one of my mum's favourite dessert.followed by shopping for clothes...haha...dad was bored ..but neverthless he is still happy. =)
well. i just wana note this down...so that i will remember this happy pix. well. only God knows very well that this picture is not easy to achieve for my family...espcially..we are a chinese traditon family. we are rather shy in expressing our love for each other. even expressing here now i feel weird. haha.

ohya! we end off with a dinner at soup restaurant! just wana recommend ...if u got any family outings there's really a nice place to have dinner...the soup are really nice...i drank frog saliva for dessert...hahaha..it was sweet~ =P

computer breaks down again! what im seeing now is a screen that is really white. it hurts my eyes. sigh.
i watched Harry Potter with Kay they all todae! well. haha...me and kay are the most timid ones.u shld had seen how we hold on to each other when the evil peeps in the show POPs out.wahaha..i think im gona miss kay real badly next year. she really brought alot of joy to me.=)

the weather is so nice today! the feeling is so shiok when u step out after bathing and the breeze just wooshh pass u...woah.it's really nice to sleep in this weather!
i feel "poetic" todae. so i should "try" to make my thoughts sounds like a "poem".haha.

can u feel the icy breeze today?
this is the breeze that i loved and enjoyed the most.
feeling its gentleness as it passes me.
it has a special scent, which brought back a not too long ago memories.
as the memories flashes, it had made me felt a sense of sweetness.
but it has also made me remembered the bitterness.
though the bitterness no longer grab a hold of me
but i still whined a little of wanting back the good old memories.

ohoh. i dunno how to put my thoughts in words liao.hmm......ohno. i really dunno how to say! i will think again. haha.=P i wana sleep! dun wana miss the good chance of slping.haha!

p.s ok it's obvious. my english still cannot make it. what a choppy poem.hahahahaha.

how one's life should be like?

why am i asking myself such qn. this is such a dangerous signal. *thinking hard* am i busy with the right stuffs? am i busy at a right way? is this the way i should serve? am i neglacting anyone that is close to my heart right now? am i? am i...???

*yawnx* still wondering...
but i know im really tired today. near 4 hrs of meeting. 3hrs of typing minutes in CHINESE.(only completed 3 out of 12) how horrible. i really dunno what i wana achieve this coming week. seems that things are becoming more like an obligation. THAT'S VERY BAD. i know. gona sort it out through prayers....

im was angry today.
no. 1) travel all the way down to school end up..practice cancelled. no notice was given. SL THOUGHT that teachers will be there so we will still be able to get the key to practise, but in the end NO TEACHERS -> NO KEY -> CANNOT PRACTISE.
WASTE MY TIME!

so i travel to CCK.. going to meet someone at 3 pm there...
walked ard lot 1 to try to get some stuff for my friend's birthday.. but cant find what i want...walked finish..go grab a bite..try not to eat so expensive one...i realise the cheapest meal was KFC $2.55 from shroom meal...but! it so unhealthy! ..can u believe it ..foodcourt food are at lesat 3 dollars more expensive than KFC! i got myself a plate of mee siam...which the serving is quite small...ahhhhh..feel so cheated.

no.2) "Poooot" i didn't fart. guess wat....MY HANDPHONE DROP INTO THE MEE SIAM!!!
i was panicked, without any hesitation i picked up hp ...poor motorola E398...stained with meesiam....i tried to "save" it ..but i dun have tissue! how! i walked towards the cleaner...asked her politely to lend me her cloth to clean...guess what! SHE SNAPPED AT ME!and say: YOUR OWN THINGS OWNSELF GO AND FIND WAYS TO WIPE. I WILL NOT HELP U.
i was so mad. cna u imagine the gravy just keep on dripping dirtied my skirt and shirt and she still dun wan to help. with my sticky hands , one holding my hp one holding my wallet i hurriedly walk to the drink stall to buy a packet of tissue. sigh. now i got a "messiam hp" i still can smell the meesiam from it...eee..

no.3) i sat at Macs..it was ard 130pm ...waited..for the person to come...330pm..she didn't turn up...awww.....im glad Michelle is ard..or else i will be even more cham...

ok at least i brought somethings with me...so i can do..i sat til 530..yar.the chair must be realli hot...haha

well. but the day ended with a positive note!i met dx! finally...we have been asking each other out to tok since promo ended?finally...haha...
well it's very true that true friends doesn't have to see each other everyday to maintain a friendship....the conversation is really quality!..haha..im always very thankful and amazed when i can still remain close with a friend despite we hardly see and tok to each other so much..=D

im really happy to see her growing , learnt stuff from her...her experience when she share with her friends...
yar indeed. evangelism is not by ourselves. but we are teamed up with God. =P
p.s. go and care. go to where they are.

hello. i ate lots of things yesterday. that i skip my dinner.haha.
list of things i ate for lunch:
curry chicken ( super duper oily that i dare not drink the curry)
rice ( cooked with chicken oil)
durian ice kachang ( imagine it has such high sugar contain)
roti boy ( can't resist the temptation cux it is selling at 90cents..hot buy!)

haha...i feel really fat after eating so many oily and sweet stuff...drank milk for dinner...haha...

i had my first visit to the central national library yesterday!
and i go with her! a new friend that i get to know yesterday! haha ...ming hui! continue to thrist to know God's Words k? im so encouraged by u ! =P

and ahem thx ah i "love" the national library lift. it makes my heart jump out....hahahaha...my legs trembled when i got out of the lift...how embarrassing lah....hahaha

well. im going through a tough time now. it seems that my trail is "growing" bigger and bigger. may i continue to cling on to Him. =P