friendster can be quite addictive i think...i kept looking at people photos and is going to be an hour...how scary...i think...many things u know it just become memories and u cant turn it back and cant have it back liao...quite sad hor...yarloh...i really miss secondary school days very badly...but let's stop dreaming to be back into secondary school days...aww..the feeling is awful...=S

have you watched narnia?
must go and watch ok...it's very nice and very touching.
woah.did i tell you?
im most touched at the scene of the battle.
wana know why?
it reminded me about the fact that all christians are constantly in this spirtual warfare.
yar, battling gainst the evil Satan for the good cause of doing God's work and living up a life pleaseing to Him.
however many a times we fail..we give in ..(sometimes we didn't even know) letting Satan have a foothold...
how's the situation in your life? are you still fighting hard? still standing as firm as before?or you wanted to retreat? just want to be a christian that dun fight.(that's weird!)
i think most importantly we have to examine the willingness of our heart.
are you willing? to die in this battle? or are you ready? to fight in this battle.
many people died for the good cause. died cause they want to share God's good news.
how abt me? i was guilty cux i know i still didn give all i have and go all the way just to share the good news. many a times, i will lost the friendships with my friends. and cux my own spiritual battle in my daily life. it's so hard to react in all situation in a Christ-like manner and attitude.
"For Narnia, for Aslan"
let's continue to encourage one another to not to give up in running the race. amazingly this was the verse I came across during QT yesterday,
"therefore,since we are surroundeded by a great cloud of witnesses,let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely,and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,looking to Jesus the founder and perfecter of our faith..." Hebrews 12:1-2

let God's love to us be our motivation in running this race.=D

hello peeps~ !it's christmas!!!! christmas!!!! =D

i wana wish you a merry christmas,
i wana wish you a merry christmas!
i wana wish you a merry christmas
from the bottom of my heart ah!!! hee ~come sing with me!hee!

but hor u koe hor...christmas wihtout jesus has no meaning le...so let us also put aside a time for God to thank Him for loving us so much to send His son on earth to die for us.He don't need to u koe u koe?

if you have the time to spend crazy times with your friends must cherish, cux someone peep have to spend time in their lab! sigh sigh.

hee, well thankies for all our lovely cards and presents!!! hee...i love chocolate i love choclate!

hey EC i love your magnet...IT'S OK TO BE SLOW BUT JUST DUN STOP.
hee~ trying to suan me at the same time it encouraged me =P

what you want for christmas? =)
reminder: sch is one week away.................................................

tired. i think for the next many entries im just gona keep on repeating this.

sigh. i dun like the feeling of hmm....not being able to achieve the ideal case. it embeds the feeling of rejection.
sounds like a perfectionist ya? im quite a perfectionist actually...but over the years... it's not that much now....it's that good or bad?

brain: im tired.
mind: im tired too.
heart: im tired three.

how i wish someone can just carry moi..

hm, realise my posts are always speech. lets have some pix here! here it goes..

grace came back to SG for christmas!!! yeah i got grace for christmas!our first outing was to go and watch eu and jo performance at esplanade(BandFestival06)...some lame pix that we took:



we started off rather normal......however.....as we continue to walk on....

our funny faces start to appear.... the very first one...(trying to boo boo the esplanade?)

i think it was me having a problem..haha..cant even be normal with the subsequent photos..

we tried another funny act: indian dance ( isn't it cool to dance infront of fullerton?)

this was a huh pose... i think we are trying to act being flatten by a car...???


i tell u! it's not on me and grace are weird. eu is even worst loh u see:


so do u know what are they trying to find?i dunno u know..

at least we ended: normal. big smile! haha...cant help not to smile with them ard.=P

i shall post more next time.=P i bought my dress today ...yawnx.tiring walked the whole day . gdnite peeps =)

something to add on: kay wanted to give me her jean yip vochuer so that i can have the free trail of two slimming session. that's very thoughful of her hor? hee..but too bad im under 18. ahahahaa...come to think of it it's very funny. please loh...i seriously cant imagine myself doing those session...the machinese and the fats.weird.aha.=p

i felt so loved when i received a genuine present. yup. it definately lifted my spirit up!hee.=D
hm. i really wana buy something useful for those people that i love and care...but i have no finincial! haha...seriously...i can only make things..but hor...im so busy now that its hard for me to have time to make. i really really hope i can finish all my xmas card by thurs..so that i can send it on time! brrr.....haha..actually i got lots to share and say .. but too tired. gotta do lots of work.

its a headache to shift and buy new furnitures. ah!=P
thx God for keeping me safe and giving my strength to pull through the day.
Thank you peeps for keeping me in your prayers. =)

hello!=) you know what? i just chatted to someone whom i dun really know and also dun really know how she look..for one hour plus!! im really happy and amazed how God has enabled the conversation to be smooth....it is an unexpected conversation which i thank God for it. =) may God continue to enable me to know each youth that i come across genuinely and make me an instrument to share His good news and love with them. =D

if one were to ask me how am i recently? i seriously dunno how to answer. i can only conclude that im really tired in all ways. there's so many things i wana do. but i fail to do it. my memory fails . my strength fails. my will fails. i must declare that im limited, it is impossible for me to accomplish things by myself.

to my heavenly Father,
please continue to keep me faithful to the end and continue to be my source of joy and strength.
I know that im limited i need You to accomplish the things with me.
Your daughter

tomolo is a time for pot luck ! yippee! my last and first one pot luck was in sec 2.haha.meat balls.hee.tomolo gona wake up early to make crab mayo omellete! haaha...hope it works..haha..ah!left 5 hrs of slp....goodnite!=)

guess what did i do today?! come guess!
ans: I CLIMBED 13 FLIGHTS OF STAIRS.
conclusion: im mad for wanting to do some excercise.=P
results: spinning head.legs and hands turn into jelly.

by the way i lived on the 20th storey. so i took a lift down and up again. I really felt my whole head spinning, and my legs and hands have no strength at all...i shouldn't have risk, haha..moral of the story , dun ever risk ur live for beauty sake. wahahahaa.=P

The Unwanted Gift

It was laying on the table
Still and unpackaged.
The maker spent hours on it;
Doing it with all his/her heart and efforts,
Trying his/her very best to make it presentable.
He/she hopes that the receiver will be filled with sweetness and joy
Upon receiving this prepared gift.

But now despite the gift was done
And despite the maker was pleased with it,
It was not presented.
He/she tried,
But the response was hostile.
What do you suggest the maker to do?
Continue to try to give?
Or continue to leave it laying on the table, collecting dust?




Because of love, you will still give.

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i was very happy that day because we had a family outing! do u know that is really rare for my family to go on a outing?(in fact i don't remember any outing like this) it was my mum's birthday. =) my dad and sis took leave and we went outing at orchard. orchard - werid place for dad. but still i see him grin from ear to ear.
the picture: just me my sis my dad and mum ...went shopping. walk along at orchard road.we just go anywhere that mum wants to go.
sis: u want to buy ur shoes right?
we pulled her, and we stepped into our first destination : charles and keith.sis bought a pair of new shoes for her.
me: so where u want to go for ur sec stop?
mum: i want to eat ice-cream
sis: ok! let's go to gleto(ok i dunno how to spell)
we all had ice-cream..sat at the fountain at taka and apprecating one of my mum's favourite dessert.followed by shopping for clothes...haha...dad was bored ..but neverthless he is still happy. =)
well. i just wana note this down...so that i will remember this happy pix. well. only God knows very well that this picture is not easy to achieve for my family...espcially..we are a chinese traditon family. we are rather shy in expressing our love for each other. even expressing here now i feel weird. haha.

ohya! we end off with a dinner at soup restaurant! just wana recommend ...if u got any family outings there's really a nice place to have dinner...the soup are really nice...i drank frog saliva for dessert...hahaha..it was sweet~ =P

computer breaks down again! what im seeing now is a screen that is really white. it hurts my eyes. sigh.
i watched Harry Potter with Kay they all todae! well. haha...me and kay are the most timid ones.u shld had seen how we hold on to each other when the evil peeps in the show POPs out.wahaha..i think im gona miss kay real badly next year. she really brought alot of joy to me.=)

the weather is so nice today! the feeling is so shiok when u step out after bathing and the breeze just wooshh pass u...woah.it's really nice to sleep in this weather!
i feel "poetic" todae. so i should "try" to make my thoughts sounds like a "poem".haha.

can u feel the icy breeze today?
this is the breeze that i loved and enjoyed the most.
feeling its gentleness as it passes me.
it has a special scent, which brought back a not too long ago memories.
as the memories flashes, it had made me felt a sense of sweetness.
but it has also made me remembered the bitterness.
though the bitterness no longer grab a hold of me
but i still whined a little of wanting back the good old memories.

ohoh. i dunno how to put my thoughts in words liao.hmm......ohno. i really dunno how to say! i will think again. haha.=P i wana sleep! dun wana miss the good chance of slping.haha!

p.s ok it's obvious. my english still cannot make it. what a choppy poem.hahahahaha.

how one's life should be like?

why am i asking myself such qn. this is such a dangerous signal. *thinking hard* am i busy with the right stuffs? am i busy at a right way? is this the way i should serve? am i neglacting anyone that is close to my heart right now? am i? am i...???

*yawnx* still wondering...
but i know im really tired today. near 4 hrs of meeting. 3hrs of typing minutes in CHINESE.(only completed 3 out of 12) how horrible. i really dunno what i wana achieve this coming week. seems that things are becoming more like an obligation. THAT'S VERY BAD. i know. gona sort it out through prayers....

im was angry today.
no. 1) travel all the way down to school end up..practice cancelled. no notice was given. SL THOUGHT that teachers will be there so we will still be able to get the key to practise, but in the end NO TEACHERS -> NO KEY -> CANNOT PRACTISE.
WASTE MY TIME!

so i travel to CCK.. going to meet someone at 3 pm there...
walked ard lot 1 to try to get some stuff for my friend's birthday.. but cant find what i want...walked finish..go grab a bite..try not to eat so expensive one...i realise the cheapest meal was KFC $2.55 from shroom meal...but! it so unhealthy! ..can u believe it ..foodcourt food are at lesat 3 dollars more expensive than KFC! i got myself a plate of mee siam...which the serving is quite small...ahhhhh..feel so cheated.

no.2) "Poooot" i didn't fart. guess wat....MY HANDPHONE DROP INTO THE MEE SIAM!!!
i was panicked, without any hesitation i picked up hp ...poor motorola E398...stained with meesiam....i tried to "save" it ..but i dun have tissue! how! i walked towards the cleaner...asked her politely to lend me her cloth to clean...guess what! SHE SNAPPED AT ME!and say: YOUR OWN THINGS OWNSELF GO AND FIND WAYS TO WIPE. I WILL NOT HELP U.
i was so mad. cna u imagine the gravy just keep on dripping dirtied my skirt and shirt and she still dun wan to help. with my sticky hands , one holding my hp one holding my wallet i hurriedly walk to the drink stall to buy a packet of tissue. sigh. now i got a "messiam hp" i still can smell the meesiam from it...eee..

no.3) i sat at Macs..it was ard 130pm ...waited..for the person to come...330pm..she didn't turn up...awww.....im glad Michelle is ard..or else i will be even more cham...

ok at least i brought somethings with me...so i can do..i sat til 530..yar.the chair must be realli hot...haha

well. but the day ended with a positive note!i met dx! finally...we have been asking each other out to tok since promo ended?finally...haha...
well it's very true that true friends doesn't have to see each other everyday to maintain a friendship....the conversation is really quality!..haha..im always very thankful and amazed when i can still remain close with a friend despite we hardly see and tok to each other so much..=D

im really happy to see her growing , learnt stuff from her...her experience when she share with her friends...
yar indeed. evangelism is not by ourselves. but we are teamed up with God. =P
p.s. go and care. go to where they are.

hello. i ate lots of things yesterday. that i skip my dinner.haha.
list of things i ate for lunch:
curry chicken ( super duper oily that i dare not drink the curry)
rice ( cooked with chicken oil)
durian ice kachang ( imagine it has such high sugar contain)
roti boy ( can't resist the temptation cux it is selling at 90cents..hot buy!)

haha...i feel really fat after eating so many oily and sweet stuff...drank milk for dinner...haha...

i had my first visit to the central national library yesterday!
and i go with her! a new friend that i get to know yesterday! haha ...ming hui! continue to thrist to know God's Words k? im so encouraged by u ! =P

and ahem thx ah i "love" the national library lift. it makes my heart jump out....hahahaha...my legs trembled when i got out of the lift...how embarrassing lah....hahaha

well. im going through a tough time now. it seems that my trail is "growing" bigger and bigger. may i continue to cling on to Him. =P

[me] have you ever wonder why you fail so many times in terms of studies?
[me again] yar...
[me] so what are your thoughts]
[me again] well ... though feeelings sux big time, though I feel so weary, dun understand why i have to suffer and face such terrible horrible thing...im assured that God works for the good purposes for those who love Him
[me] so seems that you see some "light"
[me again] yar..i think one thing that God wants me to learn is not to put me in comfort zone
[me] poor you , since sec 1 u have been changing classes every year .except sec 3&4... changing ur group of friends ..and u say that good?
[me again] yar ... precisely..this shows that God knows me utterly well..He knows that if i always stay in the same class i will get too comfortable and it will be even harder to get out ... i think that's why i always face a lot of changes in terms of environment...i must admit that im really a person who takes a long period of time to adapt and adjust ... though i may appear...emotionally and mentally im not really..i once thought adapting to a new environment is not a problem to me..but i was wrong...He knows me much better than i know myself...
[me] are u just trying to comfort yourself
[me again] obviously not...duh.

i wana be a little lamb of God, always taking a little step of faith to move forward , always learning to trust and obey Him. For He is my good shepherd. =)

my computer is back! no longer the laptop! yeah! woah. i realise my keyboard is so nice to type one. got the bouncy bouncy feeling and the chattering keys sound. sounds crispy to me.hahahahahahahahahaha.and woah ! my screen now is really big! soothe my eyes...haha..=P

though my computer is back but it is reformatted that means!! lots of images are gone. lots of songs are gone. lots of words documents are gone. well well. i think..........that can do some good to me. =)

hey don't worry for me k. i think retain is not a very very very bad thing. is just that i have yet to reach the standard required and therefore i have to be one year slower than others. so im really ok though when people asked me about it ..i still feel er...duno where to hide..haha. it's really a good time to learn the lesson of "humility" =) -learning in process- i graduate liao then tell u ...haha..but i think by that time i will be in heaven...wahahaha..

i still wana say : THANK YOU FOR REMEMBERING ME IN YOUR PRAYERS!

i do still need it... i think especially when school starts. =) now is not yet the worst time and feeling. hm...in the meanwhile im trying to pick up studying intensively again. =) everyone must jiayou!!!

MY THANKSGIVING

thank you Lord for showering me with Your abundant love,joy and peace.
He hears my cries attentively and show me His promises through His Words.
He is always so faithful. =)

i thank Him for the people that He placed in my life.
without them seriously i don't think i can stand up that fast.
hey peeps, thank you so much for your encouragment, support, concern, reminding me to keep my eyes fixed on God, for His plans are always the best for me and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts.

thank you u all for encouragingments( through my blog, sms or words or prayers etc!) are all APPRECIATED! =D

without you all, i dunno i will dwell in my sorrows for dunno how long...hahaha...
especially peeps that i know barely for 7 months in acjc ! im so amazed and surprised by u all the love and warmth....heheheee.... =D
of course my co-workers in yfc and my sis and bro in church too !

it's well with my soul. =) im ready to stand up and fight the battle again.

THANK YOU !!!!!!! love you guys ... =P

you know, im in such a conflicting state of mind. dunno which is the correct attitude that i should take in response to the devasting results. lots of questions on my head. questions that i dunno how to find answer.
well. i only can hold on to one thing that is: God loves me. simple statement yet it is hard to tell ppl exactly how did He shower His love on me in my daily life.

friends asked: how come u can still be so optimistic? after receiving such bad results at the next moment can still smile and say that im craving for brownie..." i wana eat brownie..but very ex leh shld i?..brownie can make me happy loh.."
well. only He can give me this peace and can make me still smile at the storm. =)

well. i only have one wish. that is whatever actions or attitude i take in response to this storm. let it be blameless in His sight.

well. obviously. still sad. but He gave me strength to face tomorrow.Cause He holds my tomorrow.=)

im short fused today.people are getting more short fused too.i wonder how many blown out bulbs will i see tomorrow. i saw my physics teacher today! i dare not look at him. =S *tick.tick.tick. friday is approaching. where's my peace? =S

today with have sexuality education which they emphaise that it is not sex education which i dun understand what's the differnece ?!! haha .. anyway .. my heart sank when i saw people dun find anything wrong in pre-marital marriage. do u koe my teacher agrees that there's no wrong in pre-marital marriage as long as two love each other. what's the world coming to? it's getting to scary.... the values are just so blur in the youth minds now...it seems that absolute rights and wrongs does not exist tothem..there are always a lea way...

well..shall tok more abt it another time...

anway today is wan ting's birthday. well . though is a short party . but i enjoyed. i felt encouraged when i see younger ones growing spiritaully in the Lord. =) and im happy to see cell groups growing. im happy to pray in a group. conclusion : im over-all happy not short fused. =P

i think im getting crazy each day....haha...im feeling that im gona have a fever soon...ohno..what's wrong with me....well...just let me whine now........................................................................and slp:)

i love the night breeze ... so so nice...smells nice too? =)
as i reflect back the times when im preparing for promo ... i couldn't believe that i made it through....the struggles to stay focus in studying..the struggles to cope with my fears..the struggles to be discipline..the stresses..peer pressure... etc....the non-stop battle spiritually and physically...are really frightening to me...
how many times did i actually break down and cry...feeling myself very useless...simple things also cannot conqueor etc...
but really i can only say one thing that is God made it possible for me. He really carried me through these diffcult moments ... comforting me through His words and songs...assures me...providing me strength and rest...
how can i be doubtful to this God who is so real in my life, how can i doubt at His love for me.
truly it's His grace and mercy , that He is willing to love me who is so unworthy of His love.
He is the Kings of kings and Lord of lords yet he still willing to die on the cross for me so that my sins may be cleansed.
His love is so big big big big BIG !!!

now is the awaiting of my results..which will all be out on friday...the thought of me makes my heart panic...but may i also learnt to put my trust and confidence in Him alone and stay focus to do His works.=)

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial,because when he has stood the test,he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12

may our faith be toughen and not lessen after each round of battle! =P