the needs.I see it, I must carry it out.

the sheeps.Response & Responsible.

Change grumbles to thanksgivings:

Thank God that I have assignments to do. :)

anyway some pictures from a camera that i just bought from the IT fair.SONY W170

the sky was really abit orangy that day.

RAINBOW :D ( without the flash on)

the rainbow was really huge. after crossing the carpark and a distance i can still it see it, arching over the sky. :):) taken on sun 22/03/09.evening.on the way for dinner with dad.

MercyMe - Word Of God Speak
I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's OK
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Chorus:
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness


When troubles come, it's so easy to want to find an outlet and pour out your anguish and sorrows, who will remember to turn to God, to His words, to hear what He has to say?

Let my eyes not just see sorrows and hatred but see God's hands in control.

i'm back at je library studying. :P
I have not come here to study since A level! which is like 1 year and 3months ago?
time is flying fast and today is the new batch of jc graduates collection of A level results day.
and this thought came to my mind: would I have done better if I was not this and this or was not in that and that?

maybe I really made some bad decisions along the way back in JC days, but the amazing thing is I am still in God's plan.

how come? I guess it can't be work out through equations. :):)

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

by the way I just visited the dentist and did two fillings, BUT! the dentist say there are two more bad decays~so she requested me to visit her again to do the two fillings up.

:'( OHNO, I have bad tooth because of poor brushing techniques...

就这样，和我一起从小长大的玩伴，乘了飞机飞往她人生的另一个篇章。
愿 她在那儿，可以重新认识自己，找到有主 时时同在的喜乐与平安。:) :):)

Rejoice in the Lord!

God has used this word to constantly remind me and make me reflect that:

• what does rejoice means? It means having the unweavering joy and confidence in God.
• when things don't seem right, the more i need to rejoice. This is a test of my faith in Jesus Christ.
• i can rejoice in whatever cirumstances because no matter how bad are the situations, there's this assurance: i am in a position of complete reconciliation with God.

Chorus:

O REJOICE IN THE LORD,

He makes no mistake.

He knoweth the end of each path that I take!

For when I am tried and purified,

I shall come forth as gold.

i need to change my blog skin! it looks really dead.

Why do i want to keep a blog if i find it so ma fan to keep?
I guess a blog to me helps me to keep track of some events and thoughts that I have at the particular moment in life? I think it's nice to read back the blogs and trace how much you ahve grown , by God's grace. :) i can't think of another alternative to do it, cuz i can't write it down in a dairy, but if i don't take effort to point it down somewhere, i will forget abt it. Moreover, when some thoughts lingers,it's good to type it out. It helps me to give further thoughts about it. I need an outlet to voice out.

i admire those people who have good language proficiency because they can express themselves well.
recently, i have reading so much on eduactional pschology,have been trying to identify myself with some of the theories. trying to match some of my experiences with what have been explained in the theories. I have not come to a conclusion to some of question on my mind, or perhaps i think till im lost. haha.

anyway, another entry of joiting down my thoughts,
it's fustrating to know that i have so many many weaknessess, but God still accepts me and wants to use me.
because of Jesus, what is actually dead came alive!

His love, His grace and His power.
some staements sounds really simple as I have listened and read about it over so many times the apst 20years , yet it's really hard to act it out.

one of my churchmate made this video for our youth group and also to sort of publicise our youth group to the public.
when i look at the youths we have, there have so much potential to do so much more for God. i think there's more intiatives to be done on my side.

I thought i have overcomed that painful experience. but there's actually a spill-over, which i need to continue to ask God to help me work through it.

teach me Lord, to learn how to love and dare to love the people around me.
teach me Lord, to built my security in you alone.

check this out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eax1cM3wZJ8

a Christian marriage does not mean having a wedding in a church.
a Christian marriage does not mean having two Christian lovey doveys.
A Christian marriage is when a Christian couple becoming one in flesh uniting in Christ.
There's order and unity. :)

it's really a joyous thing to attend church wedding, witnessing two person, who each aims to love God with all their heart, becoming husband and wife. :D

yesterday, i was just telling sher about school. I was feeling abit down because my work ( a group project) was not in a sense being selected. i know that is a really bad bad bad thing. i should never compare, but is just so hard to not compare with others. it's so hard to not want to stand out from the rest.
it's hard, but I want to learn to really really practice : do my best like doing for my Lord, and let God handle the rest. My role is never to compare with others , but really to finish what is given to me well.

I am preparing Romans for my church and I can really feel and understand how deep is God's love for us. However, i really lack in communication skills to explain the weight of the whole idea. May i persevere to carry out what God has placed in my heart.

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this:

While we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

Romans 5:8

my blog is really dead .
haha, no time to blog.
and i raelly wonder how do i want to use my blog well?

ok i will try to revive my blog someday.....

just told a friend online that i feel bored and need someone to talk to.
you know why is that so?
cuz i have always been facing my assignments and essays , i am talking to myself more than to others! so so lonely...haha! :)

i'm once again thankful to God for friendssssssssssssssssssssssssss! :D

happy day today :):)
though the weather is really hot, and my heels are really bad. :P

finished some assignments, although there still plenty to go.
went over to linda's hse to do our cupcakes!
haha, we scored poorly for presentation but taste wise is nice :D
and we tried to make the pumpkin thing that stef has always longed to do.
haha, we made pumpkin tarts! haha, nice! healthy tart w pumpkin being high in fibre, and digestive biscuit as the cake base.

no wastage. :):):)

a week is starting again.
although there's alot of assignments to do,(especially i have this philo essay that is going to due soon)
but may I continue to trust and depend on God's strength and tide through this week.

full of thanksgiving for I have a heavenly Father who love me lots lots lots lots. :D:D:D:D

horrible.
in a surpressed mode.
urgh.


"Because He lives, I can face tomorrow."

yawnx...
suppose to write this reflection thing for edu psy, but i'm clueless on what to write.
it is on the topic about motivation.
how are you going to motivate at-risk students?
interesting topic right?

there's thing about theorotical and practical.
if we do not implement what we have studied into our teaching, then we have studied will be useless. many have said that it is idealistic to implement what you have learnt to teaching, cuz reality differs alot.
am i really in my own bubble world?

i really don't want to start doing my work.........whine.......
i want to change my blogskin!
i want to start doing my cards!
i want to sleep!

sigh. but not now.ok do work.

2 weeks of school has passed! and there's seriously many stacks of notes awaiting me to read them.

i have 6 modules:

• communications
• teaching applications and theories,
• educational psychology
• modern chi lit
• chi language reading and writting
• Modern Chinese Phonology and HanYu Pin Yin

guess which is the one i find the hardest to survive? the last one ! Han yu pin yin!most of the time i was lost. it is so funny, each english alphabet letter has it's own chi pronouncation and each chi word you pronounce you must know which part of the tounge produces the sound etc etc etc.

im really thinking twice do i really like chi! haha, but yar like is still my fav. subject. but i thank God i have a very nice tutor for that most horrible module. so i think i will still be able to survive.

but something really interesting that i discovered during consultation with my tutor for that module to day.

do you know that there's errrors in our Han Yu Pin Yin system?

ok but it's still safe to continue using it.

it seems that there's bound to be flaws in systems ( not particularly referring to judicial system) and theories etc.

SIN. penetrating every areas of out life.

language is so intricate yet we are using our language so loosely. not taking seriousness in communication!

on an additional note, i ended my work officially as a Part-tie Barista at Spinelli yesterday. not so much of sad but i do not bear to leave the work when is like i'm starting to get used to it. i will miss the work and the people there!

ok back to prepare bible study for church youth group tmr!

just came back from orientation camp!
it's really a nice one,can see and feel the efforts put in by the committee members.friends in the group are nice and cooporative.
but don't know why I just feel something not so comfortable.
but at least it really settles me for the sch reopen next week!

i saw this is one of my friend's blog and decided to quote her cause I have this thought before too but just that I do not know how to express it out. She can really link and express thoughts well. =) =) =)
A thought after visiting back your secondary school, seeing the people, things, places etc:
It has always struck me as rather strange that one can change so much in 10 years but in that same ten years, it seems that time has stopped for the stall owners and school people. Superficially, everything will continue to run as it has for the last decade. A sense of stability amidst constant change or pity that their lives has stagnated.


Friendship.
sometimes i really wonder hard about it.
or maybe, perhaps, a lot of times.

i want to secure my identity in ChristAlone.

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross

In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
is Christ alone

thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings to me.
thank you for trusting me.
im aniticipating how God will mould you from a young boy to a young man who goes after God's heart :) :)



yesterday had bible study on Daniel chapter 3.

"Trust God."
"Have faith in God."

common phrases, popular phrases, how do you qualify it?
this phrase is so commonly used among the christian community that if we do not attempt to qualify it, we might just miss the essence of it. I mean we may not turly understand what we are saying.

I guess many of us are familiar about the event of Daniel's 3 friends were thrown into the fire furnace? do you know what did the friends say when the king commanded them to be thrown into the fire?

"If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up."

will you say that they are of little faith, because they replied to the king with the "if"? If God didn't...

No. I think they are truly of great faith. They truly understands that no matter what's the outcome, God is still soverign. So even if they are really thrown into the first and burn to death, they know that if God has allowed that to happen, that's the best for them.

will we find that God is wrong or saying that that decision is not wise enough if they are burnt to death?

what i have learnt that having faith is not only in trusting that somethng will turn out better. but is also trusting that even if something worse happened, it is still within God's soverignty, within His wisdom and best plans.

may i continue to love listening to God's Voice through studying of His word. =D

sometimes i really wonder what does it mean to be a good daddy's girl.
does it really mean to obey whatever he says?
but if what he said is wrong, do i still listen?
obviously not right. (before that i have to truly examine whether it's wrong)
but how to tell him with a gentle and yet not offensive way.

i know where you are coming from, but sometimes is just so tiring to explaine.

urgh. i just don't want to be kid that no longer wants to talk.

"Honour your father and your mother,

so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you"

Exodus 20:12

"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-- not by works, so that no one can boast"

Ephesians 2:8-9

Who doesn't wrestle with sin?
I do.
i ought to feel bad.
but i should not forget the fact that God in His deepest love has chose to set me free!

"Those who look on him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame."

Psalm 34:5

Through Jesus Christ, we are seen as radiant! GRACE.

may i learnt to show grace and forgiveness to others just like what God chose to give it to me.

:)

urgh.
feel so lost and fruastrated.
no handphone, no cash can be withdrawn.
now, i realised my thumdrive is pick-pocketed together with my wallet and hp.
fruastrated over the fact that i feel so worried.

suddenly so many things are happening, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
this reminded me of, sometimes what i planned God can intercept it.
im just a very tiny and vulnerable person.

Lord, teach me to depend on You and to cast my worries upon You.

God is in control by Avalon

This is no time for fear

This is a time for faith and determination

Don't lose the vision here

Carried away by emotion

Hold on to all that you hide in your heart

There is one thing that has always been true

It holds the world together

CHORUS

God is in control

We believe that His children will not be forsaken

God is in control

We will choose to remember and never be shaken

There is no power above or beside Him,

we knowGod is in control, oh God is in control

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Grace last day of work in Spinelli.
my shift manager made a comment that caught me thinking: no one is permanent.

040708
first meeting with Linda to discuss west girls event.

040708
a pick-pocket case actually happened on me.
there goes my wallet and handphone. =(

no CCTV in the shop.
shop assitants are clueless.
sercurity guards are helpless.

am i faithless?
Prayers didn't came first, my own thoughts came first into my mind.
I forgot that God is more powerful and mighty than the CCTV, the shop assitants and sercurity gurads,and me.

is not about beliving God can make my wallet and hp re-appear again.
it is about coming to Him first, because it shows that no matter how bad is the situation, i am trusting that God is in control; He knows all things and sees all things.
He knows what's happening to the birds in the sky, obviously He knows what is happening to me at that place and at that moment. So obviously He knows what i need.

no matter how bad the situation or situations in life is, there's still many things that we can thank God for.

for this incident,
i truly thank God for Stef.
I'm so so glad that i have a friend with me ( i can't imagine if i was alone).
thank God that she spotted that my bag was wide-opened.
calmed me down.walk around with me to find.immediately lend me her phone.talk to sercurity guards.provide me with money to travel.travel all the way down togethr to singtel shop to get a new SIM card.together we lodged a report. thank God for her smiles and laughters that helpes me not to be so sacred and tense up.

thank God that there's less than $5 bucks in the wallet, less than a dollar in the ez-link.the wallet is a really old one. so the theif seriously didn't "earn" much.

phew.
lessson learnt: Low crime does not mean no crime. be alert and responsible for your sown belonings. don't be too engross in shopping and forget everything else!

Thank God for your protection.

I had a good rest today. :)

haha, didn't manage to go somewhere like by the beach or some parks to have some quiet moments, just went to some coffee house and sat there, read and think.
i think once in a long while, is good to have a personal retreat---a retreat that medidate on God's Word. :) :)

let me share with you some thoughts before i turn to bed.
it is amazing that what i was reading is about rest too! I'm reading this book titled: Written in Stone. which is talks about the Ten Commandements and Today's Moral Crisis. Do we still obey the Ten Commandements even though we are so called under the new covanent? Of course we do right, so how to in this present time.
so anyway, i was reading on the fourth commandement about keeping the Sabbath day holy.
some extracts from the chapeter :

"we are called to work and rest because we serve a working,resting God."

"Our problem is that we find it so hard to take genuine delight inthe sanctified pleasures of God.Dare I say it? God bores us. We are willing to spend some of our time worshiping Him. but then we feel like we need a break, and so we go right back to the world's lesser pleasures.But the more we learn to delight in God, the more willing we are to keep his day holy."

Learning points for me :
I am under His grace( He saved us though we do not deserve), yet often I am so unwilling to give that one day unto Him alone, wants to bargin the time to do more work ( it could be church work too).

I could be physically be in church but I am not truly setting aside the day for Him as my mind and heart might be at somewhere else. I'm once again reminded that going church is not about attendance but about whether am I ready to worship God.

Sunday is for us to rest, and this rest does not mean I sleep very long then get rest or go out with friends, but the rest should be tuning back to God (the One who made you), to be refreshed by Him.

Sabbath day is not the last day of the week, but the first day of the week. It is the Lord's Day:D


I haven really comprehend finding rest in Him alone but I know what Jesus has done for us gives meaning to everything in our lives. So let's just keep finding out! =)

31st May.west girls event discussion.tcc.PS hunting & shopping. fort canning.
thankyou Lord. :D:D

"My soul finds rest in God alone;my salvation comes from Him." Psalms 62:1